In Heaven

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Oh, Thinking about our younger days...

We met when we were only kids. He was the sweetest boy ever and we instantly became best friends. He was my only friend at the time.

There was only you and me

We were young and wild and free

He was always there for me when I needed him most. So kind and generous. He would give the world for me. I couldn't ask for a better best friend.

Now nothing can take you away from me

His father soon decided he needed to go to a better school and that was when I lost him. Years later, he come back for me. Returned to my school and once again, we were inseparable.

We've been down that road before

But that's over now

You keep me comin back for more

The nights that he spent at my house while his parents fought, the summers we spent together, all the memories we made... those were our special moments. At the time, I only saw him as a friend, my best friend. 

I told myself that I couldn't fall in love with my bestfriend. I promised my self I wouldn't. But I quickly broke that promise when we got into middle school. After puberty hit, we both changed.

He developed into a handsome attractive young man and I was changing into a young growing woman. He started to appeal more to me and everyday, I would get more attached.

I met another girl, her name was Summer. She had beautiful blonde hair that fell perfectly on her shoulders. We instantly clicked and she grew a friendship with him as well. We met two more friends and expanded our group. 

After all the years of only having one friend, I finally had more. But he was more special.

Without our other friends knowing, we both had secret sleep overs where we would just cuddle and watch movies. It was nothing romantic. Just very close friends protecting each other. We held each other close and I can feel safe in his arms

Baby, you're all that I want

When you're lying here in my arms

I'm finding it hard to believe

we're in heaven...

I felt a strong connection to him and I felt like we were becoming more than friends. His secret glances at me, the way he puts his arm around my shoulders when we're sitting side by side, the way he kisses my forehead every time he is leaving. It's hard to believe he wouldn't have some attraction to me but we are just friends. Very  good friends.

And love is all that I need

And I found it there in your heart

It isn't too hard to see

We're in heaven..

Zack...is his name. The boy I become more attracted to every time he smiles at me. They boy who I love. The one who makes me feel safe. 

I know I'm in love with Zack but I can't tell him. He'll never want to speak to me again knowing that I have feelings for him. He won't even see me as a friend anymore... he'll see me as less.

Maybe I'm not good enough. Maybe he doesn't like girls like me. Maybe he is in love with Summer...? No. Freddy likes Summer. Zack would never like his best friends crush.  Wait. Maybe he has another best friend who has a crush on me and he sticks to bro code and hides his feelings for me? no. I'm thinking way too into this.

Why do I even have a crush on Zack?

I need to get out of my thoughts and get back into reality. Good thing there is school tomorrow to distract me from all these feelings.

A/N: And that's a wrap on the very first chapter of this book! What did you think!? I honestly and loving how it is turning out so far and I can't wait to continue it. My other books will still be updated regularly so don't worry! And, please listen to the song this goes with even though its a sad song, its amazing.

Til next time!

-Z