Weight ❑ (Kim Taehyung Fanfiction)

Chapter 6

April 10, 2018

It's been about a week since I've had lunch with Taehyung's group of friends. I continue to hang out with them after that and they seem to accept who I am.

I've gained so much energy from having friends, I've added more workouts for the mornings and they're my motivation now.

Every time I'm with the group, Taehyung is always right beside me and whenever Hoseok speaks to me, Taehyung seems to get a little closer and touchy. I really don't know what's going on between those two or about the mental fight that Taehyung got into with him a week ago.

Even so, whenever Hoseok does talk to me, my heart just beats a little faster, my hands get clammy, and I just start avoiding eye contact with him, but I want what I feel to be discreet so instead of looking at his eyes or just rudely looking around while he's talking to me, I start at the gap right between his eyebrows.

A trick of mine to avoid awkward situations, if you may call it.

I haven't experienced anything like this. Albeit, I've never tried to get close to anybody but I feel attracted to him. I feel like I just need to know more about Hoseok.

Is this a crush? What if it's a crush? I've read online that you should talk about your crush to your best friend but the closest friend I have is Taehyung.

Should I tell him?

I've decided. If he is going to put in effort to become my friend, u should put in some effort as well.

How and when should I tell him this though. It seems like he's not on good terms with Hoseok right now for some reason.

I'll tell him this weekend.

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April 14, 2018

"Hey! What's up?" Taehyung greets, arriving a few minutes earlier than the time that I settled.

"Hi, Taetae. There's just something I want to discuss this with to someone but it's kind of hard to say," I admit, kind of getting straight to the point.

"Don't hold back! This is the first personal thing you've ever wanted to talk to me about! I'm so excited!!" He squeals, continuing to act like his cute self.

His reaction just gives me energy to speak and I take a deep breath.

"Well. I think I have a crush on Hoseok," I say shyly, taking some hair resting on my shoulders and hiding my face with it.

After a while, I don't hear anything from Taehyung. No reaction, no gasps of surprises, nothing.

I uncover the hair from my face and see an expressionless face looking back at me. Completely unamused, not quite surprised, nothing that shows that he cares.

"I'm sorry. I knew I shouldn't have opened up. I just thought I should try but I'm just not ready. I'll be leaving," I stand from the seat and walk out the store, feeling the exact opposite of what u felt while entering the store.

I really didn't know Taehyung wouldn't care. I feel like I'm just overthinking it, but this is really going to eat at me.

If Taehyung doesn't have a reaction, does this mean Hoseok doesn't like me? That I don't have a chance because I'm so fat and ugly and I don't even deserve to wish for love?

I pull out my phone and look through my contacts. Should I meet up with Hoseok and either confront him or confess to him? I'm not even so sure of my feelings and I've met him like.. what? A week ago?

I'm not the type that someone would fall in love with at first sight so confessing is not an option. Nor is asking whether he enjoys me as a friend or not because that could get Taehyung with trouble with him.

Taehyung May have hurt my feeling but that doesn't mean I'll betray his decisions but I do think that he's acting a bit strange towards me.

I walk myself home and I head straight to my room for exercise. I don't usually exercise in any other time but the morning but I just feel that I need to do this in order to relieve some stress.

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A/N-
Holy actual crap, guys. I've left you hanging with this story for almost a year and I am so sorry. I've been working on a lot of other stories and I've had a major writers block for this story. I'll try to regularly update this story but NO PROMISES!!