amnesia || l.h.

02.

        I hate myself. I really do. I'm an unsuccessful idiot. I did graduate from high school, I did attend one year of college but drugs took over my life at one party. I got kicked out of college. I don't even know how. Oh sorry. I forgot to introduce myself. I'm Luke. I like drugs and bands. I always wanted to be a singer and start my own band with my friends. I like to play my guitar too. I'm not the best at singing but I enjoy it. I even write my own songs sometimes. Well, I get sad sometimes and it's obvious what I do. I go out and go to my mates out and do drugs. Anything we can get our hands on. I have 3 main mates, Michael, Calum, and Ashton. Ashton loves the drums, Calum is kiwi but looks Asian, Michael really likes dying his hair, and Im boring I'm very stupid and there is alot going on in my life. If your wondering where my parents are well my dad died when I was 11 he died from leukemia. it was very hard for me. I cried every night since that till I was 12. Well, my mom ever since my dad's death, she has gotten distance. One time she forgot about me and asked why I was in her home. That really hit me. One day she had a stroke and I had no idea what to do so I cried and kept on saying sorry. I used to have a brother but he died from a suicide attempt. That really hit me the hardest. I remember everything. it was one month after my father died. he said sorry that night and that he loved me. I didn't understand because I was 11. He was 14. I still think about him till this day. I'll hopefully see him one day. And right now I live in this shit big condo. My grandparents bought it for me before they died. I hate it because I miss them so much. I just really want happiness. But I'm starting to believe that it's made up.