There is a thing over my head
That I can't control
I'm in way over my head
Yet I can't escape
You can't help anymore
You've all you could
I have to battle my dragons
All by myself
Push everyone away
Leave me alone
Pull up the defenses
Got to put on the mask
Keep up the facade
It's not fun...
I can't trust you to keep my secret
I've hidden it for sooo long
It's a part of me
I trusted you
You ripped me apart
Left me in pieces
All along the floor
You pleaded
But how can I trust you again?
You left me there
Left me for the wolves
Now you're begging for mercy
My heart's in pieces
You're begging me for help
I'mm standing on the sidelines
Reliving each moment
Each day
I know what going to happen
I know each beating
Each slap
I can't prevent you
I'm here only in spirit
Watching you defoul my body
Watching me
Watching you
Blood trickles on the floor
Creeping under the door
It's sooo hard to watch
But I can't turn away
The sticks come out
I watched your face changed
The animistic expression
You changed
Beating the life out of me
You can't help but watch
Each gruesome expression
Each one more brutal than the last
My heart goes out
You think that you've escaped the law
Think you're above it
Help me...
You were there when I pleaded
You took no notice
Why should I?
I should be better than you
But it hurts so bad
The scars remain on the inside
The time I was abandoned
On the garden path aged four
The cold settling in
Crying my eyes out
Waking up the neighbours
Your frequent lies
I didn't realise she was out there
Yet you never brought me in
You left me out there
With the forecast set to snow
You left me
Eventually, he came home
Brouught me in
Fed me
He brought me up
When you were too lazy too
I look up to him
He took the beating for me
He stood up for me
He took me out
Sheltered me
I watch from the sidelines
Blood spills from his lips
Gashes open
The excuses
I ran into a door
I tripped
I'm soo clumsy
I got into a fight
But we know the truth
He did it for me
He protected me
I pleaded with you
Leave him
But you said....
Let him learn the error of his ways
We don't dare speak up
Leave me alone
Put up the face
Do the bravado
Make up a fictional life
Where we live happily
Never invite anyone home
It's too dangerous
Don't take it personal...
I've just got a problem
The beatings keep on coming
I dare not speak out
For fear of retribution
He's my savior
I look up to him
I'm closer to him rather than anyone else
My brother
Not you
Daddy dear...
