Oof I haven't updated in a long time. For the past 2 months i just have been feeling like i don't wanna do things. Like what's the point?
I wasn't feeling very creative so i haven't been updating the stories i am working on but recently i have been reading "the marking" by beautifullybrutal (i 100% suggest checking it out if you like werewolves) and her story has given me ideas for new stories and to update one of my own.
For the past 2 months i have been feeling up and down. i guess i should talk about the good parts?
i went to a place called bucking horse. And my uncle got a filly who is 9 months old right now. She's the sweetest girl. So gentle and sweet. It's hard to believe that beautiful girl got abused.
I have not been struggle with my depression and self harm as bad recently. Which is good but at any day now it might go back to what it was before. It just can't be helped.
Now for the bad things :/
I lost a friend the other day. He had been trying to go out with me recently but i finally got the courage to reject him last night. What gave me the courage was me feeling uncomfortable. Um.. he used to follow me everywhere. No matter what. If he wanted to stay and do something but i wanted to leave he would follow me. And he has tried to read my text messages to people.
I had a friend help me with wording because i didn't wanna hurt him or piss him off. But he got pissed off anyways. He... cussed me out said he wasted his time with me hoping i would be with him and tried to make me feel bad for rejecting him.. and in a way. he succeeded... i cried myself to sleep that night because i felt like a bad person.
That's all i am comfortable with right now. so ya.... cya i guess
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My thoughts and my struggles
Non-fictiethis is not a story. I have spent years of my life struggling with suicidal thoughts, anxiety, self-harm, eating disorder-ish (idk what to call it), low self-a-steam, depression, etc. And i never figured out how to actually tell people what i feel...
