So kiss me

Post break up kiss

authors note:
the point of view switches between tyler and josh constantly, without clearly stating first who/when. i think the story/writing itself makes it clear without being confusing ☺️

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tyler saw him from afar, between all other faces, his heart immediately beating heavily, weighing at least a million pounds. he still had that ridiculously beautiful smile and tyler soon zoned out, staring.

it had been 3,5 years. it felt like forever and at the same time it felt like yesterday. 3,5 years in where they had only seen each other a handfull of times, in the first few months. after that their paths had fully separated, with josh moving to LA and tyler staying in home town columbus.

both had tried to never look back. never look back on the years they spent being absolutely inseparable. they were young when they got together. too young, many said. josh was just 18, tyler 17 when they met in the summer.

tyler broke up with his girlfriend only two days after he met josh for the first time. his head was flooded with images of the boy with the pierced ears and dyed hair. his brain had been unable to think of anything else for hours, days, and his girlfriend hadn't even crossed his mind once. he had no care to spend time with her, or on her. he rather spend time with his new friend.
the moment she texted him for something random he bluntly broke up with her, and he never regretted it for a second.

inseparable from day one. he didn't even fully realize he was actually in love with the boy for a long time, just thinking he found his best friend. and he did find his best friend, but so much more than that. he found his person. it took them almost a year for admitting there was more than friendship. josh had made the first move eventually. tyler didn't know if he ever would've if the 19 year old hadn't just bluntly kissed him.

they grew older together from then on, sharing their lives without a second thought. for years.

tyler sighed in relief when josh walked the other way, sure he wasn't spotted. yet. he asked himself why he was even here, knowing too well the chance that josh would be here too were high. maybe he had secretly hoped he would see him... but he also wasn't sure he was ready to really see him. talk to him.
he looked good, his hair was longer, untamed curls, almost in front of his eyes. tyler smiled softly when he realized the lenght of his own hair, and the bun on his head. he wondered what josh would think of it.

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josh pretty much immediately turned the other way, apologetically smiling to the people next to him, when he saw this familiar face in the distance. he wasn't ready to be confronted with his ex-boyfriend just yet, it had been 3 years since he had seen him last. he wasn't ready yet, and so he walked back, hoping tyler hadn't seen him.
he then met other old friends, who he superficially talked to, finding out tyler had a daughter since a few months. people always started about tyler when josh was here, since the two had been one for so long. it was always them, and people still felt like it was them, while it hadn't been for years now.

it had been beautiful, them. tyler had been his everything. his whole world. he wasn't used to having friends in a way he became friends with tyler from the first moment. before, friends had always been to just.. drink or smoke with, hang around town. trying to get through the days. tyler didn't do any of those things and yet josh fell for him so hard. tyler talked. talked about himself, about life, about what he was thinking and feeling and for josh it was like the boy put to words what he had always held inside.