Spectrum Of A Rainbow ✔

Chapter Seven

Felicitas and Omid settled on the couch and Felicitas felt her palms getting sweaty and her heartbeat racing. She had no idea why she was so nervous, she knew that Omid would accept whatever she said. He wouldn't judge one bit, he'd only be happy for her, that she'd figured things out.

"So, you wanted to talk?" He breaks the silence, giving her one of those warm smiles. She understood why he was such a successful lawyer, he had a way of making you feel comfortable enough to share all of your darkest secrets. There were just something about him that made you trust him instantly.

"Yeah." She took a deep breath. "I've figured out this whole thing with Rachel." She swallowed hard and looked down on her hands, her palms pressed to her tigh. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't seem to get the words out so she just sat there.

"And?" Omid asked, as he put one and over her hand. His voice was calm and it gave her comfort.

"I'm in love with her, or more like a crush I think." Felicitas let out a breath she hadn't realized she was holding in. "Point is, you were right and I, um, I'm bisexual."

"How does it feel?" Omid asked, his voice still calm and he had a soft smile on his face.

"Good." She answered with a mix between a scoff and a laugh, actually smiling back. It was like a heavy weight had lifted of off her chest as she said the words out loud for the first time. She's bisexual and now that she's accepted this, it felt like the missing pieces in her life fell into place. "But, what should I do now? About Rachel? She's still calling and texting about setting up another double date." Felicitas face fell as she realized that this was only the beginning.

"Well, you have two options. Either you tell her the truth, that you have a crush on her and need space, also no double dates for obvious reasons. Or you tell her that you're in love with someone but that's it's a person who's in a relationship so it doesn't matter who it is, you just need some time away from dating to get over it." Omid laid it out as if it were one of his cases and his client had to make a choice before a trial. It made Felicitas smile a little.

"How do I pick one?" She asked, her smile fading as she ran a hand through her hair.

"I don't know, both option would put a strain on your friendship. Either you're lying to her and she's going to notice that something is off or she finds out about your feelings and might take a step back. It's going to affect you two in some way or another, it's more of a question of how honest you want to be and what would feel the most right for you." Omid said, still laying it out as a case. He was quite for a little while, moving his mouth a little to the left as he thought. "There's no right or wrong here. It depends on you and how your relationship with Rachel is."

"I've never lied to her before. Well, except all the excuses I've told her the last couple of months while all of this has been going on." Felicitas swallowed hard. "If I were her I'd want to know the truth and I also hate lying. But it's terrifying to think about telling her. I have no idea how she's going to react, you know?" She sighed, she knew deep down that she wouldn't be able to lie to Rachel.

"I can only guess, but I think she'd be mainly surprised. She not homophobic or biphobic that much I can tell you." Omid said as he squeezed her hand.

"But, she's in a relationship, I don't want to come between that." Felicitas bit her lip and closed her eyes.

"Tell her that, make sure she knows you're not trying to come in between her and Josef. Okay?" He dipped his head down to look her in the eyes and she nodded.

"Okay, I'll call her now." She said as she reached out and picked up her phone from the table in front of them and took a deep breath before pressing call. It rang for so long that Felicitas almost thought that she wouldn't answer but just before she was ready to press cancel she answered.

"Felicitas! Hello!" Rachel squealed with excitement as she answered the phone call.

"Rachel, hi." She tried to use a casual voice but she could hear how her voice was shaking. "I um, I was just wondering if .. " She cleared her throat and looked at Omid who gave her a soft smile and a little nod. "If you could come over today. I have something I need to talk about with you."

"Yes, of course!" Rachel answered in an almost as happy voice as she'd answered the phone with, though you could hear that she was a little worried about what Felicitas wanted to tell her. "I can be at your place in an hour?"

"That works, I'm home so just come when you're ready." Felicitas said, holding her breath not wanting Rachel to notice that anything was wrong or how nervous she was.

"I'll see you then, I've really missed you." Rachel's voice had died down to her normal tone and Felicitas knew that she'd noticed that something was wrong.

"Yeah, um, me too. See you soon." Felicitas answered, she didn't really lie, she'd really missed Rachel though not in the same way as she'd missed her. Felicitas just didn't want to feed her suspicion that something was up. They hung up and Omid hugged her, trying to keep her calm while waiting for Rachel. He promised to stay near by while she talked to Rachel, leaving her apartment 5 minutes before Rachel was supposed to show up.

"I'm just taking a walk around the neighbourhood." He told her and gave her a quick hug before leaving her apartment. To Felicitas relief Rachel was early and she was only left alone for 2 minutes or so. They greeted each other with a hug and Felicitas took her to the kitchen, sitting down opposite to each other. Now her heart was beating so hard that it felt like it would break through her chest and it felt like her lungs had shrunk to grapes, that she didn't get enough air. This was it, she was going to tell Rachel about her feelings. It was do or die, there was a possibility that Rachel would get really upset. Felicitas swallowed hard. 

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