feelings.

my best friend.

I see all of these people making posts about their friends who are upper class men and graduating, and I just started thinking.

I don't have a lot of friends. I stay to myself, and I don't like trying to involve myself when it's clearly being shown that people don't want me to involve myself.

But you know what? That's okay. You want to know why? Because I have this horse, my bestest friend in the world. And I just want to tell her thank you, for many things.

Thank you for dealing with me. I know I'm not the most educated equestrian in the world, but I'm learning. Thank you for teaching me what I know, and what I'm learning, and what I will know. You are the one that has opened my eyes and is making me a better horse woman. Thank you for loving me for who I am when no one did, and when I believed no one ever will. Thank you for being my friend when no one else wanted to be. I've never felt like I ever had a true, everlasting friend until I met you. Thank you for being there for me, when I felt all alone.

You, my friend, have been the one thing I've truly needed these past few years. People ask me why I wanted a cheap, run down horse when I could've gotten something else.

Well you want to know why? Because I knew what it was like to not be wanted. I knew what it was like when you felt as if you had no purpose, no meaning. And I wanted for her to have a second chance at a happy life. In exchange, she gave me one too.