The army girls freedom.

Time to speak up!

I had to ask and I had to ask now or else all my life I'll be stuck  being a stupid housewife or I'll be studying law . When Aba comes back and Mama serves the lunch I'll ask then and I don't care if mama doesn't let me talk whilst eating.

It was 5:00 now and Aba would be here at approximately 6:00 so I have a hour to plan what I say. Huff  this was going to be hard. 

It toke me 1 hour to plan what I was going to say and how I was going to say it . I heard the front door and  foot steps coming to the living room. OH NO ABA WAS HERE. He came in and greeted me, he looked tired as always but I hoped he was in a good mode. Mama came with some rice from yesterday and with some deserts. She put everything down on the table and we started to eat. I was getting more and more nervous as I ate more and more rice. I finished my plate first.

OKAY here you go Anaya this is the time.

"Aba I need to tell you something really important" I said quickly.

"NOT NOW Anaya how many times do I have to tell you to NOT TALK WHILST EATING do I have to spell it out for you," mama said sounding seriously cross at me.

"NOT now mama it's important" I said trying to sound serious .

" So what is it you want to tell me beta ." Aba said putting his plate on the table.

"Aba promise me you won't get angry or cross" I said putting a pleading face on.

"Why would I be cross just tell me" Aba said looking confused. Mama put her plate down wanting to know what I was going to say.

come on Anaya now or never.

"Aba you know I've always had a dream to be able to fight , climb trees , run around and just enjoy myself. It's always been part of me and you I really won't enjoy being a lawyer like you want me to be. I don't want to waste my time debating all day it's just not me. I want to do something that helps my country , my people something that makes my parent's proud people , something I'll be remembered for  and most off all something I'll enjoy" I looked around Aba was nodding his head encouraging me to carry on . Mama looked intrigued and she looked a little worried on what I might say.

"Aba I'm soo sorry if I've broken your dream that's not my intention and it'll never will be. I just hope you accept my decision and let me live my dream.............. Aba I want to join the Pakistani army please accept my decisions Aba please.  " I said looking serious and hope full. Mama looked shocked. she must have thought I was joking. Aba moved his hands and his feet around not knowing how to react. I prayed that he would be supportive and I prayed mama would accept my decision. I was more worried about Mama then Aba.

Aba got up.

"I need time to think." he said leaving the room. I knew that I had hurt him deep down, I had broken his dream, but I had dreams and I didn't have time to fulfil others dreams. 

Mama looked at me in a face that said you should be ashamed of your self. I just looked down starring at the polished floor. She got up and left the room.

I just had to hope and pray.