its her. its always been her. the more i look the more i see. its never not been her. shes my thoughts, my hopes, my aspirations. they were all her. and regardless of how much i distract myself it always comes back to her... and it hurts. it hurts to see her hurt. it hurts to see her with someone else. it hurts to think about her at night knowing she will never think the same. but that s how its supposed to be. best friends will always be best friends. never more and never less. why would they be? its never been anything else
its like an ache in my stomach. it makes me toss and turn. gives me sleepless nights. and as much as you try to forget about love it will always be in the back of your mind prepared to remind you in an aggressive thud. love will never leave because love will always be her.
and it will always hurt.
