The thoughts of a girl called Mimi

Fall outs

So fall outs.
Why do they happen.
Well here is a few of the reasons.
1) some sort of miss communication has occurred.
2) someone did something stupid and someone got offended.
3) just because some people get annoyed sometimes.

So why am I thinking about fall outs well. As of recent someone was annoyed at me. It all began when they asked me if I had a crush on their boyfriend. Now hold up. I'm a lesbian. I'm not into guys so already I was confused. I'm really good friends with this person and I was surprised to find that they didn't know his considering I had told them.

Anyway, I replied with the obvious and truthful answer "no".  I then go on to type. "Wait is this why you have been slightly cold with me, I can avoid them if you want I don't mind since your really important to me". Now me , I have trouble trusting people. Its very difficult. So to have one of the only people I can trust say this to me hurts quite a bit. Generally speaking I'm not enjoying this at all.

I see the three dots. Ok so she's typing I wonder how she will reply. I'm really worried here wich is understandable. This person matters to me a lot. Finally my phone vibrated. "No that's not what I mean, it's fine never mind ."now of course this sends me into a panic. It obviously does so I continue to text her. "Look i care about you a lot and I trust you so much."

She just sends "right"

Shock hits me. She hasn't ever been like this with me before. I'm super confused

Me being me was getting extremely upset. I don't want the people who I trust to be upset. 
I text her "just know I care about you and that I wouldn't do anything to intentionally hurt you".

She doesn't believe this. I text my best friend obviously worried. I did something wrong again. I'm useless.

I suddenly get a message it's once again from the person Ive fallen out with. She is apologising. She said she spoke to my friend and that she believes me again. Suddenly she's ill and has to leave. I just expected she didn't want to speak to me.

I was wrong with this conclusion, in actual fact she started texting me again later. We kinda just talked about the stuff we usually did. This left me with a slightly.... salty taste. I was a little annoyed that she was annoyed one minute the fine the next I mean ofcourse I'm happy she wants to be friends again but also I'm annoyed since I was crying for about an hour.

So we are friends again, of course I mean who wouldn't want to be friends with me.
Well actually maybe a lot of people...
Oh well it doesn't matter.
And I just wasted 10 minutes of your time by telling you all this.
You are forever welcome

Author
Thanks for reading. I wrote this whilst I was in the medical room waiting to be picked up.... yeah I may or may not have hurt my knee really badly whilst doing high  jump.... and I may or may not have missed my last day of S3....well f***