He liked the way Hanbin wrapped his fingers around his smaller hand whenever they were walking hand in hand. He liked how the younger was always a few steps behind him. He liked how, sometimes, the other fasted forward just enough to catch up with him and press a peck on his cheek.
He liked every single bit of Hanbin.
Coming to his house was always an exciting moment for Jinhwan, both because Hanbin acted more freely concerning his mutism and because he was more affectionate and cuddly. Jinhwan liked it too, bubbly Hanbin.
The two boys dropped their backpacks on the floor and Hanbin expectantly looked at his boyfriend.
By experience, Jinhwan was familiar with the slight pout in Hanbin's lips, the pretty shimmering of his eyes, and something unexplicable in his posture, making him appear frailer, bent to Jinhwan's desire.
"Yes Bin, we can .."
Jinhwan took off his uniform blazer jacket and put it on the desk chair before rolling up his sleeves. Hanbin did the same with his sweater and sat down on his bed, cheeks already taking an adorable red shade. Jinhwan crossed the distance between him and his lover and gently cupped his cheeks, thumb rubbing on Hanbin's swollen lips.
The younger placed his hands on his hips, pulling him closer to sit on his lap. It was their favorire position. With a calculated slowness, Jinhwan wrapped his lips around Hanbin's, trapping him in a languid kiss and letting out an appreciative sigh.
The other's reply seemed like a little laugh.
Soon, Hanbin's delicious habit to draw circles on his lower back while playing with his tongue stole a few moans from Jinhwan and it was enough for them to be turned on.
How many times had Jinhwan wanted to rub his crotch against Hanbin's ? How many times did he want to squat down between the younger's legs to blow him good and great ?
But it was exactly the problem. Hanbin was still young and Jinhwan didnt want to take his youth away. 16 shouldnt be the age for any kind of "these" firsts. Jinhwan was 18, he was the hyung. The responsibilities were on him and he'd sworn to himself to take care of Hanbin, and he will.
He let the wet kiss go on for a few seconds more, just until the moment Hanbin pressed his hips against his. This was the check point. He tried to pull back but Hanbin's mouth followed the move, not wanting to stop it yet. Jinhwan felt his heart swell with love, but enough was enough. He put his hands on the other's shoulders and held him in place.
"Alright Bin, let's stop here .."
A look at his boyfriend's face and his will almost burst into pieces. Hanbin was looking at him with need, his dark pupils dilated by arousal and pinky lips layered with a thin film of saliva .. A mix of his own and Jinhwan's.
Jinhwan internally swore.
With the rest of his determination and trembling hands, he cupped Hanbin's face and pecked both of his cheeks before kissing his foreheard.
"I dont know if I'll be able to restrain myself if you do that, babe .."
Hanbin seemed to ponder something, causing him a deep sigh. His arms slowly wrapped around Jinhwan's waist and he propped his chin on top of his shoulder. Jinhwan ran his fingers in Hanbin's light brown hair, making profit of the moment to inhale his broyfriend's scent and him only.
"Hey love, wanna grab something to eat .. ?"
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Hanbin didnt know if his erection was going to flatten down by itself but it really wasnt his first priority at the moment. If he had to be honest, he knew he wanted to do more with Jinhwan. The only problem was that his boyfriend feared he might regret it later. He was completely aware of his young age, completely aware of Jinhwan's insecurities about his capacities to make Hanbin happy, but he was also completely aware of his feelings for the older. No one had been able to make him feel good like Jinhwan, make him feel wanted and needed.
But running with this logic, he was certain they still had a long way to go together, and plenty of time for him to persuade Jinhwan into some dirty games. A handjob couldnt harm, right ?
For now, he was sat on the couch playing with Obang while Jinhwan busied himself with cooking the dinner. Nothing special, only stirred ramen with a few slices of pork, two eggs and vegetables.
The puppy was lapping his hand, waving his tail and panting happily.
Hanbin then wondered if he looked like that in front of Jinhwan .. Maybe, who knows ?
Suddenly, Jinhwan called for him from the kitchen.
"Bin, do you prefer poached eggs or omelet-like eggs?"
He opened his mouth before stopping neat on the spot. Obang stopped playing with his hand and jumped down from the couch to paddle away.
.. Jinhwan wasnt expecting him to reply, was he ?
"Bin ?"
He was.
Out of nowhere, a lump formed in his throat and he hardly swallowed it, feeling his eyes prickling with tears. He wished he could have replied. Wish he could have been like the others.
It wasnt the first time, nor the second, Jinhwan had reminded him about it. The resquest was casual but he couldnt even comply to it. Jinhwan was just too into the task to remember. He wasnt trying to be rude to Hanbin. Jinhwan wasnt his ex. Jinhwan wasnt playing around with his feelings.
A muffled sound of slippers stepping on tiles was heard and Jinhwan appeared in the doorframe, lips parted, words blocked in his throat, eyes wattery.
"Bin, I'm .." Sorry. He knew.
Jinhwan didnt mean to harm him.
The older blinked a few times before wiping his eyes with the back of his hands.
"Your hyung is really stupid, huh .."
Jinhwan cared for him. Jinhwan only wanted his well-being.
Hanbin stood up and walked to him, closing his oh so small boyfriend in a hug. He kissed his temple and let his tears fall.
They were at the beginning of their relationship.
Jinhwan had failed so many times. Hanbin had cried so many times.
Their mistakes were as frequent as their affection displays, it made them doubt, it made them upset, it made them angry.
But at the end of the road, it made them fonder of each other, it built their motivation, it fortified their bond.
Jinhwan was good for Hanbin
Jinhwan kissed his wet cheeks and looked at him with worried eyes. Hanbin only replied with a kiss on his lips.
Jinhwan was worth it.
After that, Jinhwan learnt to sign poached egg. Another word he could now add to his vocabulary of sign languages.
Hanbin was proud of Jinhwan.
