TVD Fanfic

My humanity is back

Elena's POV

My humanity is back. It just keeps hitting me that I killed people. That waitress. She had a life. She could have had kids. I can't believe I did that. Every emotion was hitting me one after an other. When I had my humanity off, it was like I was watching all of this happen from a distance. Like I was screaming "DONT!" But no one could hear me. And ever since I got my humanity back and the sire bond was broken with Damon, I've been really conflicted about my feelings. I know I had feelings for Damon but stefan... Just thinking his name lights up my day. It was always stefan. I may have had feelings for Damon but the sire bond just made me push my feelings for stefan aside. Damon is great. But I still love stefan with every fiber of my being. I don't know how to tell Damon. I know I'm going to hurt him. But it has to be done. I searched the house and finally found Damon in the cellar.

"what are you doing down here?" I asked

"Oh just a little light dusting." He chuckled.

I chuckled a little in response.

"What are you doing down here?" He asked

"I need to talk to you about something." I replied

"Yeah I do too." He said quietly. Obviously nervous:

"You first." We both said at the same time. We laughed.

"No really. You first" I insisted.

"Elena," he began, " I love you. I need you in my life. And not as a friend. I need to be by my side everyday....."

He went on telling me how he felt and I felt a pang of guilt in my stomach.

"Damon....stop." I said guiltily

"What is it?" He asked nervously.

"Damon... After the sire bond broke....I realized that I still love stefan. It was always stefan. It still is stefan. I may have feelings for you but I am completely in love with him. I don't want to hurt you. I still want to be friends with you and I don't want to lose you...." I stopped. I didn't know how to go on. He already had his head in his hands, crying. I had never sen Damon cry before.

"Damon-" i started before he cut me off..

"No. It's fine. Go, run to stefan. I'm fine. Just leave me alone" he demanded hastily.

I did as he asked and left. Now I had to find stefan and see it he would ever forgive me. I searched all over the house and he was no where to be found. So I went to the grill. Nope. School? No. Finally I wound up at Caroline's house and I knocked on the door.

"Hey Elena! What's up?" Caroline asked as she opened the door.

"Oh not much. Is stefan here? I really need to talk to him" I asked desperately.

"Yeah he is right in side" she told me.

When I walked in her living room, there he was. The boy I fell madly in love with.

"Yeah i gotta go wash my....hair" Caroline said, exiting the room.

She left an awkward silence.

"So what's so important, Elena?" Stefan asked.

"Stefan," I said, sitting down next to him, "this morning when I woke up after my sire bond was broken, the first thing I thought about was you and Damon. I knew I still had feelings for him but I had never been so sure that I was still in love with you. Stefan I still love you. I just came here hoping and praying that by chance you would forgive me and take me back. I love you so much it hurts ste-"

Before I could say anymore, I felt his lips touch mine. I hadn't kissed him in what felt like forever. Next thing I knew, I was on top of him and we were making out. Hardcore.

"Don't have sex on my couch." Caroline shouted from the next room.

We both laughed and sat back up.

"So I'm gonna take that as an 'I love you too'?" I asked.

"I never stopped loving you, Elena. It killed me to see you with Damon. When I found out about the sire bond, I was just praying that was the only reason we weren't together. I have you back now an I'm never letting you go again" he said.

I smiled. I was the happiest girl in the world. We then left Caroline's and went to the boarding house. And then our story began again. What's next? I don't know. Our story is yet to be written

----------------------------------------------------------------------

So should I keep writing this story?? I have some ideas but I want some feedback first. Vote! Comment! Etc!