You're not fine (Sterek Fanfic)

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It really was working out that stress to a degree of managable for derek. Stiles however sat down on the far side of the couch and rubbed his hands together and lowered his head. It took a few momwnts but he finally cleared his throat as if to speak. Though he couldnt seem to get his words to untangle from the fear and nervousness of the anxiety in his throat so his empty mouth worded something in silence

Derek took gulped off the tea and finshed it as he set the mug down,  he then curled up a bit as he opened his eyes and looked at stiles as he raised his eyebrows. He wondered what was on stiles mind,  he wondered if the boy was okay unlike himself,  his anxiety was set high,  he was nervous a lot actually.

He could smell the nervousness and hear the heartbeat of stiles jumping rapidly. Though quickly his heart rate picked up more and he turned to face the werewolf and grabbed dereks hand
"Im...scared" he said suddenly

Derek looked at stiles, he got to nervous hearing stiles heartbeat he bit his own lip hard , why would stiles be scared he didn't do anything wrong, "Stiles whats wrong? " he finally asked, he said softly.

He shook his head and stood moving over to the window "since... I died and came back thing and the nogitsune and not being able to tell if im awake or not... I dont know still... If this is real" he said

"If this world that your in right now? " Derek asked as he stood, "Yeah its real because im real, i know you stiles your real because i killed you.. You probably wouldn't come back! " he said trying to convince stiles that hes real which he is

He blinked slowly and tilted his head to look derek in his eyes. "Do... You want to... Kill me?"he asked softly. He sounded so broken down himself.

Derek shook his head as he went over to stiles and out a hand on stiles shoulder, "No.. But i can see were going through the same thing.. Kinda " he said as he looked down and growled softly

Goosebumps raised over his skin and he mumbled something even dereks hearing couldnt pick up.
"Can...you do something to make sure we arent either or both asleep that would wake me up and has woken me up before without you judging me?" stiles asked cautiosuly. His amber eyes essientally quivering with anxiety jumping back and forth like a rsttle almost. He was even tugging at the sleeves of his dark grey long sleeve tshirt that had little swirls similar to dereks pack sigil on his back.

Derek looked into stiles eyes and then sighed,  he cupped stiles cheeks as he pressed his lips against stiles lips for a moment before pulling away and moving his hands, "Stiles your real and im real.. Im here and your here.. Were here for each other even if were going through ruff times at the same time.. "

Stiles didn't know what to do for a moment before he pulled derek back down and kissed him hard hands drifting through his dark hair and whined against his lips.
"Derek...eh.." He chucked nervously.
"Don't fuck with me man I know we are going through rough times but... I don't wanna get jerked around ya know?" He stammered out

Derek looked at stiles, he was a bit startled when stiles had kissing him again. He left his face were it was when stiles pulled him down,  "S.. Stiles why would i fuck with you?..your not gonna get jerked around by no one.. " He said to stiles as he looked into stiles amber eyes,  he put a hand through stiles hair he loved how soft it was.

He looked down again and pushed the top of his head into dereks chest.
He was so scared that Derek was just playing on his feelings because Derek's where already messed up from the newest trama. He shook his head and mumbled pushing his face now into dereks chest "because...your a big fucking idiot and i really really like you and dont want to be a tension reliever then have everything go akward and i dont knkw man im scared"
It would have besn hard to understand or hear any of it if derek wasnt a werewolf and even then it was hard to understand. But stiles clung to dereks shirt and kept his face planted against dereks chest and abdomen area.

The werewolf looked down at the scared boy worried and scared even himself, he grunted a bit feeling stiles head stay were it was on his chest,  he then put a hand behind stiles head and put a hand on stiles waist, he softly responded, "Stiles.. You shouldn't be scared.. Awkward could be a good word for it but.. " He sighed, "Im not messing around with you.. Im not that kind of guy.. Neither are you.. Stiles i don't like you but i.. Love you" He said the last 3 words clearly,  yeah he wasn't gonna say it out loud if the pack was here but he would if it was the two of them.

Stiles stiffened almost immediatly and swallowed hard before pulling his head back to look into those usually angry eyes and saw a worries but scared softness that was frightfully unusual.
"Please...please one more time say that"he practixally whispered his leg bouncing

Derek smiled as he cupped stiles face and he leaned his forehead againsts stiles forehead, "I love you.. Stiles Stilinski" he said as he looking into the boys eyes for the hundredth time today. He sighed as he laid a soft kiss against stiles almost pink lips.

The tiny spark of hope in stiles eyes and then the realization as his lips were parted by stronger bristelted lips from years of running through woods and being tortured and bearing fangs no one should know about free his mind a blank. His heart pounded he stopped breathing as he kissed bsck... back and passionate like the first time he could create though no oxegyn entered his lungs just the taste of tea and the man he loved.
M. Stiles Stilinski. Reputation a stunt puller a joker an a annoying kid with adhd that no one could stand but he had friends oh he had friends but why.
And why was this man kissing him.
Derek hale the alpha the once okknly surviving member of his family from a tragedy so hot it burns to touch the memory.
Oh there goes his mind again  he parted his lips and kissed the inner part of soul to Derek's lips and nipped that younger like he was once told to do to keep a kiss going as he pulled in for another and another. Not letting that selfish feeling of guilt for not giving the other the chance to breathe...

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A/N: Hey guys!  So how are yall liking it so far?  Good huh?  Well i had much help on every single stiles parts my friend helped me while i normally did dereks parts so it was like a roleplay pretty mucu that i turned into a story! ❤❤☺