I like what we didn't have // Yoonseok

31. the start of something new

*two years later*

A bell chimed as the door of the coffee shop opened, Hoseok doesn't look up though, he's too busy tying his apron on.
"How can I help," Hoseok says as he lifts his head, "...you." In front of him are standing two familiar males. "Haven't seen you guys in quite a while." Hoseok smiled.

"Hoseok, you'd never believe who just texted me!" Taehyung blurted out as he walked through the doors of the back of the shop.

After Hoseok had quit bts, he started working for Wings Coffee Shop. But when bts disbanded for real, Taehyung messaged Hoseok like he promised and told him he had enough free time now. In the beginning, the younger just stopped by almost everyday. And when Hoseok jokingly said, "You come here so often, you might as well work here too." he decided that it was exactly what he was going to do.

"HOLY SHIT, NAMJOON? YOONGI?" Taehyung basically shouted when he saw his two hyungs standing in front of the counter.

They both waved briefly, "Hi, it's been quite some time." Namjoon said.
"I'll treat you guys today, it's on the house, please have a seat." Hoseok quickly said. "Oh, Taehyung, are Yubin and Mingyu still in the back?" He asked while looking back at the younger. "Yes, they are, why?"
"Tell them to cover our shift, I think we'll have a lot to talk about with Namjoon and Yoongi." Hoseok's voice squeaking when he said Yoongi's name. The older's name tasted sweet and bitter at the same time, like sad love.

When they finally all sat down with their coffee, it was quiet for a moment. But Namjoon soon spoke, "Actually, can you put my coffee in a to-go-cup, I want to go for a walk with Tae." Taehyung was already standing up to get two to-go-cups before Hoseok could even protest. Soon Taehyung carefully put their drinks in the cups and they went out.

The silence almost wasn't bearable, so Yoongi made sure to do some small talk. "So... you work here now, how's that?"
"Pretty good, I kinda co-own the place. And we even adopted Taehyung." Hoseok chuckled and a warm smile spread on Yoongi's face, "Just kidding, but he came walking in here so often and he needed a job. I talked them into it, he only had to do a small training and then he could start immidately. He's really good at his job." Hoseok's face showed pride, thinking about how easy Taehyung had adapted.
"Hoseok?"
"Yes, Yoongi?"
"I'm sorry, I've been such a dickhead. I was insensitive to you and because of me you got hurt and bangtan broke up." Hoseok could see that Yoongi had been hurting a lot.
The younger grabbed Yoongi's hand carefully, not sure if it was the right thing to do. "It's not because of you, I walked out on my own. To be honest, I didn't stop because of you. Well, not only because of you. But everything was too much for me at the moment, I couldn't do it anymore. I also haven't auditioned ever since, I just didn't want to."
Yoongi looked at their joined hands, "I want to say a lot of things, but they keep getting stuck in my throat." Yoongi choked out, tears in his eyes. "It's hard to get anything out, but," The older paused to whipe his tears away, "I've missed you, a lot. I'm sorry if that sounds selfish."
Hoseok sighed, which usually wasn't a good sign and Yoongi prepared for the words that were to come.
"I have missed you too, more than I should have." Hoseok's eyes had teared up too now.
"It's so weird though, we weren't even in a relationship." The younger smiled, thinking back to all the nights they had cuddled together.
"I like what we didn't have though, maybe try it again?" The last part of Yoongi's sentence came out carefully, almost afraid to say the words.
"No, never in my entire life I would go back to that again, it was hell." Hoseok replied, but his sentence wasn't finished yet, "But I would agree on having an actual relationship, without all the insecurities of being a 'thing' or not being a 'thing'."

"You would?"

"Yes, so if you would like to try that, I'll be waiting. But please, don't keep me waiting for too long."

"I won't."

And that promise was kept.