"Someone Else"
I'am always contented of what we had. I never asked you to put label on us. I know there was something about you and me. It's more than just friend, I can feel it, we can be more than this, i know we can. But not until you started talking about her.
"She got the most irresistible eyes, her lips is so kissable. She looks like an angel in disguise, She looks so innocent" every day you keep telling me about her. And to tell you honestly, boy, i felt very insecure.
The day I accidentally read your messages broke my heart big time. Those i love you's, i miss you's, good night's, sweet dream's, take care's, long message's, and of course those you are my favorite everything's. I used to received them. You used to send me those messages everytime we talk. Everytime we forget about time and only remember our deep talks. Share about our dreams, about how we hate our flaws, those thoughts you can't share to anybody. I used to be that girl.
I actually didn't wish to be someone else, until the day you start loving her and leave me hanging. I never wish to be someone else until you told me you think she's the one. I dont know who to blame, you who gave me hope or me who hoped to you? You gave me mixed signals boy.
Your happiness is my happiness. If I'am not your happiness, then i think i need to let go us, us that never happened. I wish she can fill the emptiness i failed to filled.
And I'm really sorry, because i know deeper in my heart. I really wish to be someone else, I really wish to be her, so u can love me more than what we had. It's really funny, i thought im contented about you and me but look at me wishing to be someone else. And still breaking myself so you can have your happiness freely.
ps. perhaps one day, someone will love me, so i dont need to be someone else. Right?
