At My Breaking Point

Chapter 10

Chapter 10:

Skylar's day was going from bad to worse.

Amelia had left Skylar alone in the room with her father after she woke up. And right now, Skylar didn't feel like dealing with her father who had been gone since she was shy of five years old. She didn't want to even speak to him from her spot against the wall. Sam was sitting on the chair that was beside Skylar's desk where her laptop and books were. He was looking at her with a gaze that just screamed he was guilty, but Skylar's didn't really care right now.

"Skylar?"

She remained silent and wrapped her arms around her knees pulling them closer to her. Sam let out a sigh that Skylar heard from her spot. She knew he was feeling guilty and he wanted to settle why he left but she didn't really want to hear it, he had ten years to come back and settle this.

"Sky?"

When Sam had used the nickname he always called her by as a child it brought tears to her eyes. He always called her that. She also remembered he said the other reason he called her Sky was because he said that her eyes were as blue as the sky. When Skylar got older she thought about how cheesy it sounded but she never forgot about it.

"Yea?"

Sam winced at the sound of his daughter's voice. She was talking barely above a whisper as hurt laced her voice.

"Sky, I'm so sorry"

Skylar let out a chuckle, which confused Sam a little.

"Sorry doesn't even cover it Sam"

It bothered Sam that his own daughter didn't call him dad. She had called him that growing up, but Sam guessed that it was the ten year gap that had caused Skylar to end up like this. He didn't blame her though, he probably deserved this.

"I know Sky."

"Stop Sam, just stop. You left your own child and didn't bother to even tell anyone why you were leaving. Not even your own brother."

"I had my reasons and I didn't want Dean to know. He would have tried to stop me"

"I wish he would of"

"Skylar..."

"No Sam. Did I mean anything to you? Was I nothing to you? Was I something that you couldn't wait to get rid of Sam?"

When Sam heard the words come out of Skylar's mouth, each one took a small stab at his heart. He hadn't meant for this to happen at all. He didn't know that he leaving had affected his daughter this much and he just wanted to cry. Skylar was everything to him, she was his world. Harley was gone now which made Skylar mean even more to him, she was all he had besides his brother. And his brother was busy raising his own daughter. Dean shouldn't have had to raise his daughter. It should have been him, not his brother.

He got up from his chair and made his way across the room and bent down in front of his daughter. He placed two fingers under her chin and forced her to look up at him. Her eyes were full of tears but not one had fallen.

"You mean the world to me Skylar, don't ever forget that, Ever. You are not something I don't want to get rid of because I would do anything to keep you near me. I left with one thought in mind, that I was protecting you. That I leaving was going to keep you safe. I wasn't okay after that night and I made some decisions that I now come to regret. I didn't get to see my little girl grow. That's something I regret every day. Don't ever forget that."

Sam watched as the tears that had gathered in her eyes start to fall.

"I always asked Dean when you were coming back. And he had to look me in the eye every time and tell me he didn't know Sam. I stopped asking when I was around nine years old. Because I didn't have the heart to hear I don't know one more time. I stopped wondering when you were going to come back home, because by then I figured you weren't."