Damaged Goods // Z.M (slow updates~editing)

Chapter 18 Secrets Revealed I (Zayn)

Rosalie's Pov

"There was this girl. I thought she really loved me. I don't know if you know her, her name is Perrie Edwards. We started going out when One Direction first started. She's a singer like me too she's in a group called Little Mix. " Zayn spoke.

"Yeah I think I've heard of them." I replied. I didn't really know who they are but their name seemed familiar.

"Yeah well we met at a studio we were recording a new song for our first album. Little mix was also there to record their first single. I do admit when I first saw Perrie she took my breath away." He paused for a second to look at me.

"Oh." Was all I could mange to say. The thought of Zayn speaking, or talking, or looking at another girl like the way he is right now, it just kills me. Even if it happened a long time ago.

"Rose I know it's hard for you to hear this, but for you to understand what has happened to me, I have to tell you how I felt. " Zayn said looking a little distraught.

"I understand." I replied softly. I wasn't sure if I wanted to hear all of this. It hurt. But if I wanted to know Zayn's story than I have to hear every detail every emotion not matter how hard it is.

"Ok, well we started talking at first, just being friends. I thought she was the most stunning girl ever. We started hanging out some more. We were getting pretty close. To the point where we were inseparable.  I was falling in love with her. And I thought she was falling in love with me as well. But she had other intentions. " Zayn said.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"You see, we started going on dates. The public loved the fact we were together. It brought more publicity to One Direction and of course to Little Mix. But Little Mix got more fame. I bought her so many gifts, I spoiled her so much. I did love her. I wanted us to be together forever. We were in a relationship for almost a year. The more time we were together the more famous we got, especially Perrie. I was deeply in love with her. But the lads saw something in her that I was too blind to see. " Zayn got up and walked to the window, looking out watching the snow fall.

I got up from the couch and I walked towards him. I put my hand on his shoulder leaning against him as well.

"Are your alright Zayn?" I asked. I didn't like seeing him like this. Seeing him hurt.

"I am now." He responded turning towards me and giving me a soft kiss on my lips. A smile formed on his face, when he looked at me. Then opened his mouth to speak again.

"Perrie was the first girl that I ever fell in love with and she was the first girl who truly broke my heart. The lads told me she was just using me. But of course the naive and insanely in love Zayn Malik didn't believe them. Perrie just wanted the fame. She didn't love me like I thought she did. It was all a scam. Perrie used me to get more famous. She was getting more distant. I was loosing her and I didn't know why. We always talked about our life together and what it'll be like. The more famous she got, the more distant she got. I tried my hardest to keep her close anything she wanted I got for her. But it didn't work. She would see me less, wouldn't return my phone calls or my text messages. " He paused for a second before he continued.

"I found out she was cheating on me."

"What?" I was in utter shock. Why would she do that? Not to sound bias but Zayn is an incredible guy.

"Yeah she was cheating on me this whole time. I found out when I went over her house one day. She was in her living room half naked, nothing but in her panties kissing another guy. When she finally noticed me she covered herself up. I asked her what she was thinking if she even cared about us.  All she did was smile and scoffed. She admitted how she never loved me, how she was using me for the fame and money. She broke my heart. I got out of there as fast as I could. I lost myself through that ordeal. That was the end of us. I didn't know how to cope with a broken heart. " He looked like if he was ashamed of something.

"I started drinking more, smoking more cigarettes, I started using girls. I was going in a downward spiral. I'm pretty sure I have destroyed girls as much as I was destroyed. I am truly sorry. I wish I could change it. I used girls in a way that almost felt like how I was being used. "

"Zayn I.."

"Hold on I'm not finished. I was truly destroyed. But when I first laid eyes on you I instantly knew you were different. And to tell you the truth I did believe for a moment that you were just with me for the money. But then I realized how independent you are, how frustrated you got when I paid for your hospital bills. You told me you can handle it yourself even though we both know you couldn't. " He chuckled a bit.

"You are such a wonderful girl Rosalie, you changed me for the better, and I truly am happy that your mine. I love the fact that your so strong, how through everything that has happened you you remain so strong." He leaned closer to  kiss me. Our kisses were always slow, tender, with so much love. Then it turned faster; in need. We kissed with so much heated passion. Then it slowed down again. We parted, both of us breathless. Only our foreheads touching while he held my hands.

"Zayn?" I said.

"Yea my love"

"I know what Perrie did to you is  unforgiveable and i am sorry she hurt you this way. I trully am sorry, i hate seeing you so broken. But the whole you using girls, are you umm using me? " I asked. I wanted to know. I didn't want to get hurt again. I didn't want him to hurt me. I want to be with him and only him.

"No of course not babe. Like I said your different, you changed me for the better." He responded while looking into my eyes. I looked away.

"But how do I know? How do I know that your not using me? Sorry for questioning you like this but like you I've had a person hurt me too. He used me. Like the way you used those other girls. Not only that but my whole life I've felt like I wasn't good enough, like if I wasn't perfect. I've been through of hell of a lot  of bad. Foster care isn't what it seems. " I said while tears forming in my eyes.

"Tell me." Zayn said wiping away my tear that escaped.

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Sorry for all y'all that like Perrie, I love her I think she's so gorgeous and talented just don't like the fact she's  with Zayn haha