A One-Off?

4 - Rejection

Dec felt weird when he put the porn in on Sunday morning. But he was determined to give it a go. Although he didn't really want to do this, he wanted to get over this weird blockade and above all he wanted to show Ant that there was nothing wrong with him. If that was the case.

'Don't be stupid' he thought and pressed play. He had chosen one of his favourites. Not that he owned many anyways but he knew it normally got him pretty excited. So he leaned back and watched the first moves and he felt nothing. He knew he was maybe a bit too tense again so he tried to relax and this time he really managed to. There was no other person around, no one he owed something, Ant was far away and so he was only accountable to himself.

He managed to not freak out when he still didn't feel some movement in his pants. He carefully let his hand wander down on his body and wrapped it around his member and started stroking it slowly while staring at the screen.

Again, it wasn't that he didn't feel anything at all, in a way he liked what he saw, but he couldn't get hard. He wasn't as excited as he usually was. Even when he closed his eyes and thought about the feeling he felt whenever Ant took him from behind, one of his favourite things, he didn't feel as much as he wanted to.

What the hell was wrong with him? He wasn't stressed at the moment, there was no pressure, it was just him and the porn and he still couldn't get hard. He didn't feel a great amount of arousal, it was even barely there and above all he wasn't really interested in getting off anyways.

Slowly but surely, Dec started to worry. Where did this come from all of a sudden? He had never had any issues with it and he had been stressed before and everything had been fine. In fact, sex even helped him with his stress most times. So this was odd and Dec freaked out a bit.

He paused the porn and went for a shower and decided to eat something and try again afterwards. It just had to work, after all he was only human and his body had to have certain needs. It had been a good 2 weeks since he had had an orgasm and surely his body just had to crave for it. He sighed loudly when he sat down in front of the laptop again and carried on watching.

He suddenly felt his member twitch the tiniest bit and he smiled. He immediately grabbed it and worked it a bit and he really felt something, but it wasn't as intense as normally, so he soon gave up. He didn't feel like he made any progress, his member was only semi-hard and it didn't harden more the more he worked on it.

He became a bit frustrated, but he tried to tell himself that it was a start and that it maybe was down to putting himself under pressure too much again. So he closed the porn and got up, trying not to be too devastated that it hadn't worked.

Ant was excited to get back home and to hug and kiss Dec again. It was crazy that he had missed him so much. After all, they were together for a long time now and it would only be normal to enjoy some time without the other from time to time. But Ant had really missed his boyfriend. Of course he had enjoyed spending time with his family, he absolutely adored them, but on Sunday he couldn't wait to get into the car and drive back home.

He had talked to Dec a few times over the weekend and he was happy to see how relaxed his boyfriend had sounded. Ant was glad that he hadn't dragged him along, he felt as though this quiet weekend did him good.

When Ant twisted his keys in the door, he could immediately hear hurried footsteps coming closer and when he opened the door he saw Dec standing behind it, grinning widely at him.

"I missed you" Dec beamed and threw himself onto Ant.

"I missed you too" Ant laughed and pecked Dec's head lovingly.

They shared a loving kiss when they pulled apart and Dec helped Ant to get his stuff inside before leading him to the kitchen.

"Wow" Ant exclaimed by seeing the table and put an arm around Dec's shoulder. "All for me?"