Nothing can help this fucking pain in my heart

Part 4 - disorders

I feel disgusting I'm laying in a mass puddle of my sweat I get up and grab my sweaty blankets and throw them in a dirty clothes basket
I grab a new pair of clothes and go to the bathroom

It was just a basic outfit some
Black shorts and a black crop top

As I strip down and walk in the shower

*after shower*

I put on my clothes and walk out I see Frank isn't on the bed anymore
"Frank?"
There was no answer I look everywhere I walk in the living room to see him watching an episode of
'Uncle Grandpa'

Iconic

I walk over and sit next to him on the couch
He acted as if I wasn't there next to him
"Frank?"
He just looking at the tv
I put my hand on his thigh and grip it a bit

He turns to look at me
"What?"
He asks
"Do you want breakfast I can go out to get some at IHOP or wherever you want?"
I say my hand still on his thigh
"No..I'm not hungry"
He says

And then looks down at my hand
I look down at my hand too and then look back at him I quickly snatch my hand back to me
"Right sorry"

He stays quiet and keeps watching the tv
I get up and get myself some cereal
I put my finished bowl in the sink and walk to the dinner table and sit on one of the wooden chairs

*2 hours past*
Frank hasn't eaten anything I'm getting worried is there something he didn't tell me does he have an eating disorder
I unplug the TV
And stand in front of him
"Frank you haven't eaten almost all day, you have to eat something"

He says nothing and just looks at his lap

I walk over and kneel down and lift his face up by his chin
"Frank why are you not eating.."

"Frank, I'm worried about you"

"I have an eating disorder.."

I hug him
And he hugs back

I look at him
"Frank I'm here to help you with your disorders and everything but you can't just not eat anything all day"
I say as I caress his cheek

And then he looks at me with anger I'm guessing this is his bipolar side kicking in..

He slaps my hand off and pushes me harshly to the floor

"AND WHY THE FUCK CAN I JUST NOT EAT ANYTHING YOU CANT JUST TELL ME WTF I CAN AND CANT DO!!"

I stand up and calmly walk over
"Frank please just-"
"NO! IM NOT LISTENING TO YOU, YOURE JUST A FUCKING WHORE THAT WANTS TO GET TO ME!"

I walk in front of him and put my hand on his cheek
Put he slaps me across the face
I knew this wasn't Frank I have to remind myself he's been through shit and he's bipolar

I can't get this side of him get to me because I'm not gonna lie I care about him

I harshly put both of my hands on Both sides of his face and shove my lips onto his

I feel him calm down
And he wraps his arms around my waist
And starts kissing back

I put my hands behind his neck and pull him closer so both of our bodies are touching

He pulls away out of breath
"Why?" He asks looking at me with pained eyes

"Why what?"
I say as I rest my forehead on his
"Why'd you kiss me.. I'm just a piece of shit that'll ruin your life and make it a living hell"

"No you won't Frank.. I care about you, I care about you enough to show my feelings for you"
I say as I peck his soft lips once again and look at him again

"You're my precious prize"
I say as I give him a silly grin
He chuckles softly and pulls me in to an embracing warm hug
"And don't think your cuteness is gonna make me forget your eating disorder"

He sighs
And looks at me it got cold without his embrace
I sit on the couch and pat the spot next to me
He sits and starts talking
"I've always been called fat and chubby I got tired of that shit and started eating less but that eating less turned into not eating at all"

"But you're fucking hot!"
I exclaim
He chuckles
"Yeah that's what you think.."
"Frank that's what everyone in the fucking school thinks the damn cheerleaders and sluts at the school won't shut up about you"

"Especially the one you killed.."
"She keeps talking about how good you fucked her apparently"

"But I literally never even went to her house and she's never gone to mine we only hung out at school she's a fuhking liar"

"That was the answer I was hoping for"
I lay back relieved
"And why is that"
He say leaning forward closer to me

"Because.. are you a virgin?"
I ask
"Of course I am, I'm too overprotective about sex I want to do it with someone who I care about and that person cares about me as much as i do"

"Damn that was adorable"
I say with a grin
"How about you are you a virgin?"
He says a smirk plastered on his face

"Yeah, it's because I've never gotten to that subject with someone and I've never had a boyfriend, so you're practically my first kiss and if you get lucky"
I shrug

"What if I get lucky what?"
He says as he raises an eyebrow
"You'll be the one to take my virginity.."
I casually say as if I totally didn't agree that he was welcome to fuck me anytime

"Well now I feel so welcome" he say with a cheeky grin

I playfully punch his shoulder
"Ow you hurt me" he say while pouting
"Oh is that so.." I say with a fake pouty frown
He nods a yes

Idk what's with me and hugging Frank but I kinda just never want to let go of him..

"Awe I'd love to always be hugging you"

He says I look at him weirdly
"Did I say that out loud?"
"Were you not supposed to because it was fuhking adorable"

I peck his cheek and he turns a shade of pink
Awe he's blushing this is too much cuteness

"Literally never leave me" I say as I crawl over and sit on his lap and leave smooches all over his face

"I'm kinda afraid that you'll leave me"

"I love you too much to do that ever"

I say as I give him a small kiss on his nose and snuggle into the crook of his neck his arms wrapped around my small figure I just never wanted this to end I wanted to stay like this forever