Sometimes I ask myself why is it that I changed my entire character and be a mess. I know that it is completely nonsense... but maybe I just want them to feel guilty. I want them to miss me. I want them to realize that I am somehow important to them. And I think because of these, I lose the entire importance of living.
I had a deep and hurtful realization... that all along... IT'S ME. It is my stupid decision that ended my happiness. They pushed me to the edge... I KNOW I WON'T FALL... but I'm the one who chose to jump off the cliff. I was a coward. And instead of fighting back, I retreated and gave them the gratitude of my downfall.
And now, I know, I needed to PROVE THEM WRONG...
