Help Save Me//Jake Paul

Chatper 1 // What they dont see.

Stupid.
Ugly.
Worthless.
Bad.
Retarded.
Shitty.
Useless.
Idiot.
Jake says to himself as he looks himself in the mirror. "Where's my blade?" Jake says to himself, alone in his bathroom. Jake gets a blade rolls down his sweaters sleeves, and goes side to side on his wrist. Jakes eye become watery until he hears a knock at the door. "Jake you in there?" Erika says. Erika is jakes bestfriend. "Jake?" Erika says once more. "y-yeah" jake tells her through the door. "You okay in there ? " Erika asks. "f-fine" Jake says. "Team 10 is going out to eat wanna join ? " Erika asks. "No I'm good" Jake replies. "alright we'll be back later" Erika walks out of jakes room. "I'm gonna do it" Jake says to himself "I'm alone no one cares so why not it'll make everyone's life better" Jake says to himself. When Jake was younger he was abused by both of his parents. Pam & Greg hated Jake. Logan was the one they loved. Jake would get whipped every time his parents saw him, they would always lock him in his room with no food or water. He had to drink water from his sink in the bathroom. He would get a beaten every time he goes out of his room, punched, kicked, slapped, spanked, he even got stabbed once his mom got crazy and stabbed his back. Logan was always loved, always got what he wanted, never got to see Jake. Logan didn't know what Jake would go through until Logan found out logan and Jake moved out to LA and that's where Jake finished school. Jake would get bullied. He hated his life and still does. He got his first girlfriend, alissaviolet but Logan the only person Jake had slept with her. She cheated on jake, he tried suicide but failed. He cuts and tries to overdose. His bestfriend Erika has no idea about any of this Jake hasn't talked to Logan ever since he got with Alissa. Jake let his cuts dry up then he put on a sweater, and gets into his car. He goes to the Hollywood sign and sits up there alone and thinks.
"Why me? Why does everyone hate me? Why do I have to exist? Wouldn't it be better if I died? Wouldn't life be easier without me? What did I ever do wrong? I'm the mistake. Everything about me is wrong. My mom hates me. My dad hates me. My family just hates me. Accept Logan. He loved me but he did me wrong. No one loves me. I should die. I shouldn't have never been born. I should be dead right now. Fuck my life I'm gonna do it." Jake says to himself as he sits in his car. Jake gets out and climbs up to the H of the Hollywood sign. He sits at the top and watches the sun go down. He grabs a blade and slightly cuts himself. He sits there and cries thinking about his life and how horrible it is. Then someone calls him name from the ground.
"Yooo jake what are you doing up there?" Kade screams from the ground. Jake looks down puts away his blade and pulls down his sleeves, and wipes his tears. He goes back down. He sees all of Team 10 in the Team 10 van. He puts a fake smile on. "I was just thinking" Jake tells kade. "Let's go home I have my car I'll see u guys there" Jake tells Team 10 "alright see you there" kade says as he gets back into the van and drives off with team 10. Jake goes into his car takes a deep breath and drives behind them.