Alive or Not, I love you (thomas sharpe x reader)

The Arrival (part 3)

I nodded and also asked, "Tom, when Edith came to us, do you still love her?" He stayed silent, but then answered, "I still have some sentimental feelings for her but I am putting those feelings aside and starting a fresh life with you."

I looked up at him while having my head on his chest and smiled. He looked at me with his blue-green eyes and smiled with his adorable smile. I ruffled his messy hair while getting up and putting on slippers. I walked out of our room and went downstairs to make breakfast. I made Tom's favorite, pancakes. While I was cooking, I felt arms snaking around my waist. I chuckled at his adorableness, he placed his head on the crook of my shoulder. Since I'm 1.78cm it was simple for him to do that. He said with a morning voice, "I smell pancakes and my favorite girl so I arrived." I giggled at his statement. 

I finished making pancakes and gave him more because I know how much he loves them. As we ate, we talked about our wedding plans, since the ones we knew were dead so we decided to go to town hall and get married there. I would wear a short elegant dress while we would wear a tux. I thought that afterwards we would go to a place to eat but we weren't sure yet. We finished and decided to go out to a bookstore/cafe. So we went upstairs and I got dressed since it was still cold outside I wore leather boots, jeans with a jacket and Toms scarf. I made a french braid and came downstairs to see darling waiting for me already. It was usually like that, him waiting for me to finish but usually I'm fast when it comes to changing. We walked out and Tom drived us to the place. (He passed the driving test and he has a good job so he bought himself a Jaguar) Tom helped me out of the car and we walked over to the cafe. The cafe was old fashion looking, the kept the look the same for a hundred years. They preserved it's beauty. I am usually in awe from it. We sat near the cozy fireplace and drank some warm earl Greg with a hint of sugar and milk. We both love it. As we drank our teas we discussed what we would do after getting married. We thought of getting a trip to Italy because I was there once but remember how beautiful it was so I would like to bring Tom and show him the beauty of it. We finished our drinks and left the cozy cafe. Tom drove us back home, as we took our shoes off I made my way up to our bedroom. I was getting changed when darling came in and sat on the bed, lost in his thoughts and I wondered what he was thinking of so I asked him. I finished changing and went to the bed and sat near him. I took my hands and wrapped around his muscular slender arm and said,"Darling what is bothering your beautiful mind?" He didn't respond, probably he didn't hear me. I repeated myself to hear him say, "Do you actually love me or did you do all this just to get revenge on Luciell? How do I know you will tell the truth." He looked at me with his eyes that baby blue now ice blue. I was shocked, I told him, "Why would I use your feelings that I care for to get revenge on someone who has done harm to you, me and other women?" He looked at me, thought for sometime and said, "I'm sorry darling, I'm just tired and need to have some rest." He got up and walked out of the room. But before walking out completely and closing the door, he said, "I will have to talk to you in the morning." I looked at him in confusion and feel nervous...I brushed it off.
-next day you start making pancakes when he comes in...-
He sits down silently, he didn't even say good morning, I'm not even saying that he hugged or kissed me...I finished up with the pancakes and gave him a portion. I sat down and smiled at him and said,"Your favorite darling." He looked unphased and didn't even touch it. I try to hold his hand when he moves it away and says, "(y/n), I want to call off the engagement...I don't love you anymore." When I heard that, I didn't cry, I didn't scream. I got up, took off the ring and went upstairs to pack. I finished and cam down with my stuff to see him still there. I placed the suitcase near the door and came back into the kitchen. I look at him, he looked at me, he looked guilty. He came up to me and said, "Darl-I meant (y/n), I say this because...I cheated...I was with a woman who looked like Edith, I've been with her for 2 months. I love her a lot." I looked at him with a broken heart and slapped him. I placed the keys on the kitchen counter and said, "Hope she makes you  happy and gives you what I wasn't able to." He was about to speak when I cut him off with a goodbye and left. 

I went outside and placed the suitcase into the trunk of my car and as I was about to sit in the driver's seat he ran up to me and wanted to say something but I cut him off again and said, "I'll b coming back to take the rest of my belongings tomorrow, goodbye for now Thomas." I close the door, lock the doors and start the engine. I drove out the gates of this house I used to call home and thought to myself, guess things aren't like in fairytales. 

-P.O.V of Thomas-

I stood on the stairs as I watched her drive away. When I didn't see her car anymore I went back into the house, memories hit me like a truck. The 1st time I saw her 200 years ago and until now. I went into the kitchen, the cold pancakes were there...I felt guilty for cheating her but that woman I met, just reminds me of Edith, I miss her...I wish Edith was immortal too...she was happy with the doctor and I would never take away her happiness...I walked to the bedroom I used to share with (y/n) and smelled her fragrance on the sheets as I stared out the window. I laid down and slowly closed my eyes and thought of (y/n)...I don't deserve her...she did everything for me and I broke her...I saw pictures of Luna(the lady Thomas is with now and has been for two months now) she was a lot like Edith. 

-flashback to the time when Thomas was a ghost and saw Edith for the last time-

As I stood near the engine I tried to have a profit with, I saw Luciell and Edith trying to kill each other...I made myself appear to them, Edith saw me first. She told Lucille, as Lucille looked at me with her bloodshot eyes Edith had the chance to swing the shovel over Lucille's head and kill her. I'm glad that I was able to help to stop this madness. Edith came up to me, she raised her hand to my cheek on which had that stab that killed me, I was able to feel a slight warmth from her...I craved her touch. I wished to be alive again, to be able to hug her, to grow old with her...but I wouldn't be able to do that anymore...I'm dead. 

-back to the present-

I heard a ring, I saw it was a text from Luna-

Luna: Hey Tom, wanna go out for a late night walk?

I saw the time and it was 1 A.M., I wanted to get (y/n) off my mind so I agreed and replied-

Sure, I would love to, where do we meet? :Tom

she replied

Luna: Meet me near the small coffee shop that is also a bookstore.

I thought to myself...shit

I replied and said-

Okay, I'll be there in 10. :Tom

I got out of bed and went downstairs. I took my jacket and decided to drive near the town so I could then park and go to Luna. I arrive and saw Luna in a hoodie I gave her and in a pair of dark jeans. Her back was to me so I saw her dirty blonde hair in a bun, she turned to me and smiled at me. Oh god how this reminds me of Edith...I said hi to her and she kissed me. I smiled and she held my hand as we went off for your late night walk.