gone too far

why

i think i've realised why.

why i still hurt.

why i still cry.

why i still don't understand.

why i still love you.

the only thing that is stopping me, is myself. and deep down, i just can't just bring myself to let you go.

and i want to. i need to.

the thing is. i know i can't love you. 

i never can.

but i still do and that hurts.

and you flirt with me.

oh that makes it harder.

so much harder.

so much harder to say no.

i wish you would stop.

why won't you stop?