Unexpected Love - Larry Stylinson AU (Mpreg)

21.

Louis;

I never responded to his greeting. I just stared at him, I never knew someone could get even more beautiful in 4 months like he has. I looked him up and down with my mouth slightly open. I still felt Liam and Niall's eyes on me, digging their way into my soul.

"Not talking then?" Harry questioned. I sighed, not quite sure on what he wants me to say.

"What do you want me to say?" I questioned, raising my eyebrow.

"Can we go talk?" I swallowed hard and shook my head.

"I don't think that will be a good idea. I'm still hurt." I admitted, lowering my head towards the floor. I heard Harry sigh.

"I get that, I understand I hurt you but Lou, I never meant too." I felt my heart flutter at the sound of the small nickname. I slight smile settled upon my face. "You've been incredible to me and Belle. I can't thank you enough for that but I'm not ready for that kind of a commitment. You've got to understand that?" Harry's statement turned into a question rather than a solid sentence. I bit my lip, trying to fight the tears. I raised my head and looked at him. His face was sad and his eyes like mine, brimming with tears.

"I don't think I'm ready for a commitment either. Too soon Haz." I admitted. My heart began to hurt, I think I actually felt it break yet I'm not sure whether it broke from my statement or Harry's.

"Okay? At least come see Belle?" I bit my lip once again, thinking deeply. "She talks about you all the time Lou. She misses her papa."

Tears began streaming down my face. I couldn't stop them. I'd made such an impact on her life yet somehow I drove her and Harry out my life. I did rush into things with Harry, I still don't know everything yet I love him with all my heart. I've never felt like this about anyone before, I've never defended someone so much to anyone.

Liam and Niall tell me things like none of this was my fault and that Harry chose to leave, fair enough maybe that is true but I always find something to defend. I always find something to argue about when it comes to him.

I want to accept him back with wide open arms but I can't. I'm more broken than I thought, just like he is and what's the point if at least one of us isn't strong. I want Belle to know who I am, I want her to be able to come home, call me papa, tell me stories about her day...I can't leave them.

Can I?

"Louis?" I snapped out of my thoughts and sighed.

"Okay." I said, quietly. "I'll come see Belle, for her. No one else." Harry simply nodded and walked away. My eyes followed his every move. I wiped my face, viciously.

"What the fuck have you just done? What have we told you?" Liam's harsh voice rang through the training room. I sat up straight and sighed.

"Belle needs me Li." I whispered, more to myself than anyone else. I rose from the bench and chucked my bag over my shoulder.

"And you need to sort yourself out." Liam said softly. I turned and looked at Liam.

"And that's what I'm going to do." I simply said before walking out of the training rooms. I strolled back to my house. As I approached the driveway, I pulled out my keys and opened up my car. I opened the back door and slung my bag onto the back seat. I climbed into the drivers seat and started the car. I backed out of the driveway, sped down the street towards Zayn's. The only place Harry would go.

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I pulled up outside the house and sighed. Here goes nothing.

I climbed out of the car, closing the door behind me and locking it up. I slowly walked up to the door, raised my hand and knocked lightly. I stood impatiently outside the closed door, my foot rapidly tapping the stone floor.