// Pilot: "Hello, this is your captain speaking, and before take off, I have to deliver a letter to Miss Renee" *calls your name*
// Co-Pilot: "This is from your big sister, I'm assuming she's either too shy or chicken to publish this while she's around, which is why she saved this for when she's in flight for you to read.."
// Me: I'm on the same plane as you guys, you twits! And that is not what I did, I am not shy. *blushes* Carry on... ;-; ................ my wayward son...
Okie, so this ish for chu sis, I am probably in the plane right now as you are reading this, or even at the airport.
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Dear Renee,
Since I met you, you've just been so amazing, for real. Words can never describe how much you mean to me or how much I love you. You're really everything to me, and you always make me so happy and you make me smile so much. I know I say things like this all the time on every special occasion but I mean this all day and every day with all my heart and soul. But, in all honesty, I don't think I can ever express how much I love you. There's not enough ways, I can write all I can, speak through videos or even send you little things. But I just can never tell you how much I really do love you. Out of everyone I have ever met in my life, you have been the BEST person to ever walk into my life. And I mean that, I have had friends in real life who walked all over me and who were cruel to me. But you never once were mean to me, treated me bad, used or hurt me. I am so grateful for you, I love you past the moon, past the stars, beyond all universes and past the great beyond. I always wish that there was more I could do for you than just be words on a screen, pictures in a folder or even videos on YouTube, I wish that there was more I could do for you, because you deserve more. Everyone has different ways of how they like to receive love, some people love words, gifts and touches. In my life time, I will try to give you everything that I can. I won't stop until you are as happy and safe as you can be. There's nothing I can use or say to describe the feeling I had when we first met. From since the first message, I just felt like right away I loved you and I just felt some kind of connection with you I have never ever felt before. It was different and I couldn't understand it fully.
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Your messages had such an effect on me, I'd smile so much, I'd blush until my whole face was as red as an apple. I'd get so excited to see your name light my phone up during the day and in the night. I was so excited and delighted to meet you. The excitement I felt was almost the same feeling you get when you get into something new and the feeling just warms your heart and adds so much to your day. I feel like that every single time I message you, sis. It's not a feeling that left, it's still there. I still obsess over things and get so attached even though I don't mean to. But thinking back to the days when I first met you, it was like then I actually had a vision for what I wanted in life, and it is you. I remember listening to music while messaging you, just blocking out the voices of my teacher talking, and leaving the real world to just step into a new one with you. Another life, an adventure filled life with so many possibilities, characters and events. I'll tell you, there are days that stick out to me the most, and I would just kill to relive them again. The days where I used to wake up, and see your reply and type mine right before I went to brush my teeth already added to my day. Then I'd head off to gym class and during my workout you'd reply, and I'd just always hold my phone near me and either run with it in my hands or hold it during my workout so I wouldn't miss it. Then I used to have a spare class to just relax and rp with you, then lunch and I'd still be talking to you. Then another gym class and English where I would most of the time skip and go home while listening to music. I loved doing that, because it made me feel so happy. Every time I go on my iPod and I listen to that specific playlist, I just think about you and what was going on in the rp at the time. Our rp wasn't ever dull in those days, I was hooked on it, it was so juicy and good.
