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AAAHH!!! IT'S CHRISTMAS!!! ☃️ ❄️☃️ ❄️
🎵 Alright firstttt, listen to this song while you read thissss, 🎵it's honestly my favourite christmas sounding song!!! (hopefully it works!!) If not, just hum "jingle bells" 😀
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Wow, it's our second Christmas together, jeez... Time really is flying by, still feels like it's going by slow though!!!!!!!!!!
Well, I want to say that I'm glad that I'm spending a second Christmas with you. After 3 years of knowing you I'm glad we can celebrate holidays with each other all the time. You make every holiday, and every day a special one.
Alright the first part here is dark/sad but its feelz... So I put it first. Just to get this out of the way so we can enjoy our day together!!!!!!!!!! :D
I know 2018 was the shittiest year of life, it was a retched type of year. I'm hoping 2019 will bring better things your way, because you deserve it, sis. You deserve way more, hopefully someday I can try to give you all you deserve!!!!! :D All the Dewies in the world!!!! I know I've been meh and bleh almost throughout the whole of 2018, but honestly, I've lost a lot and it's taking its toll. I try not to let it show, but even in the simple and short replies you can still see that I'm sad or angry. I mean, yeah, I have flaws... Doesn't everyone? But I feel like my flaws will just drive you away, and instead of death occurring in December, it'll be me losing you because of how stupid I've been. I hate admitting that I have depression, or a little of anxiety, but it's the sad truth and I'm sorry I make you put up with me. I'm a suicidal mess...
Yeah, and I know I'm not the nicest... I'm not the sweetest or kindest. There's so many other people you could have on Wattpad, idk why you've even chose me. I mean, really if ever you left I'd gladly hop in a casket within the same hour. But I mean, I'm just at this point where I've given up with things, where I don't have enough in me to rally back and forth and be a boring sister... Whenever we are short, dull and empty with our replies, stuck in a loop of "Yus" and "Nu" sometimes I feel like I should just go away, because I feel like I'm wasting your time or that you don't want to talk with me??? That's just me, because even after 3 whole years, I'm still so shocked that I have you, my one special someone that I love and will always need in my life!!! And it just makes me happy that no matter what you'll always be here for me at the end of the day!!! <3
I just miss how we used to be... I mean my family was saying stuff and they just get me so discouraged. Because of what people have said "Oh, online friendships never last" -- Like those bitches get one MY FUCKING nerves.
