Smile

Chapter 23

• Chris's P.O.V•

Richard's mum looked at me as i grabbed my jacket from the deck chair. "Is everything okay Chris?"

I put my jacket on and looked up at her with a smile on my face. "I'm fine, just gotta get home."

Riki looked at me then put his cup down. "Are you sure?"

I nodded. "Yeah I'm, I'll see you guys later."

Richard's mum looked at me and let out a sigh. "Sure? At least take some food home."

"No it's fine Mrs Camecho, but thank you for having me."I said as I kissed her cheek. "It was a pleasure to be here and enjoy your food."

"Oh Chris, I wish you didn't have to go."Richard's mum said as she let out a sigh. "It was a pleasure having you."

"I'll show him to the door."Riki added then we walked inside to the front door in silence.

I turned the knob and opened the door, Riki took a hold of my arm and turned me around. He looked at me. "What happened?"

I yanked my arm out of his hold and looked at him then let out a sigh, I wasn't angry with him wait shouldn't I be?

"Something happened with Vienna upstairs."I replied as I let out a sigh. "The guys will explain it, I've gotta go."

"What do you mean?"

"They'll tell you." Then I walked out of the door and walked quickly to the end of the road, not wanting to see Richard's house in my sight at the moment.

How could Vienna do that?

I understand, there's so much things that happened and there's only so much you can cope with but why keep it all in for?

Why?

What is the purpose of keeping it all in?

I shouldn't say this, because I'm doing the same aren't I?

Keeping all my feelings in and not speaking a word about them.

I opened my car door and sat in my seat, closing the door and looked down at the steering wheel.

Maybe she was right, she had her own reasons for it and that it should be that way.

I brought my arm in front of me, I rolled up my jacket sleeve and looked down at my tattoo which covered up my scars.

My finger slowly traced them as I looked at them, closing my eyes as the pain of it engulf me.

"Mama, you don't have to do this you know."I said as I looked at mama, pulling out my puppy eyes brimmed with tears.

Mama kissed my forehead and looked at me. "Mijo, please go upstairs and go sleep. I can't have you here for this."

"Mama no, let me stay here and protect you please."

"Christopher, please listen to me and go now!"Mam commanded in a stern tone.

I let out a sigh, I turned around and walked upstairs into the bathroom. I locked the door then the shouting and the screaming filled up the house.

Tears streamed down my face as my back leaned against the door, I looked at the razor packet just underneath the sink.

I crawled towards it and picked up on, I looked down at my arm then looked at the razor again without any hesitation.

I opened my eyes and let out a sniff, not wanting to cry here now.

My phone pinged, I pulled it out of my pocket to see it was a text from Joel.

Joey~ Man, can you come over? Muy abburido and can't be bothered.

Me~ Can't.

Joey~ Please?

Me~ Fine then.

I was still angry with Joel for what he did to Vienna because it was uncalled for and disgusting thing to do to someone.

Joel was never like this before, okay the taunts here and there with her but he never though to do something like that to her or anyone.

I put my phone back into my pocket, I turned on the engine and began to drive.

I parked outside of Joel's house, I walked up to the door and knocked on the door waiting for someone to answer the door.

The door opened to see kitty stood there who was Joel's cousin and seemed to be staying with him. "Hey there Chris."She said with a massive smile on her face.

I put my hands in my jeans pocket and looked at her with a smile. "Hey kitty, is Joel here? He told me to come by."

She nodded. "Yes, he is. Come on in then."

She stood on the side as I walked into the house, she closed the door then looked at me. "He's in the living room with that other friend of yours but you are welcome to stay with me in my bedroom."

I let out a soft chuckle and looked at her. "Thanks for the offer but I'll go inside."

She let out a pur. "Sure? Because I can be great fun then him."

"Sure you can but no thank you."I replied then walked into the living room, wanting to be left alone by kitty.

She was a nice girl and everything but I didn't see her in that way, the only girl I saw in that way doesn't even see me like that and probably hates my guts.

Joel looked at me with a smile on his face, holding a ps4 controller in his hand and fornite on the screen. "Hey Chris."

"Hey Chris."Sebastian said making his presence aware with a grin on his face.

I looked at them both. "What do you want now?"

"What? What makes you say that?"Joel asked with a confused expression on his face. "We want to hang out together."

I rolled my eyes at him and looked at him. "Answer my question."

Sebastian let out a chuckle. "Oh, he's still hung up on that Vienna thing."

"Any right person would be still hung up on that and it isn't a thing."I replied sternly as I looked at him with a death glare. "Making fun of her like that? So what if she has two dads? If she's happy, she's happy."

"Why are you all of a sudden sticking up for her?"Joel said as he rolled his eyes.

"It's about someone tells you two that what you are doing is wrong."

"Like you wouldn't of done it."Sebastian said as he rolled his eyes.

"No I wouldn't of."

"Don't believe you."Sebastian said as he looked at me shrugging his shoulders.

"You know what? If you are going to be a fuckboy, at least do it properly and second of all, being friends after so long  and you don't even know me properly?"I said with a scoff. "Then fuck you and everything that goes with it."

Then I left the house.