Without you (Creek Bunny Style)

Chapter 10. Flashback Part 2

~Still in Flashback~ Stan POV

I went straight home after that. As soon as I got there and walked in, my mom yelled from the living room. ''Stan! There you are! I've tried calling you twice. You're girlfriend is here. She's up in your room waiting for you.'' I didn't feel like explaining to her that we weren't dating anymore so I just went right up to my room. When I walked in, she jumped up from my bed. ''About time! Dude, you reek of weed. Where have you been? Kenny's?'' I sniffed myself. ''What's it to you?'' She got closer and put a hand on her hip. ''Stan, look... I know you don't want to see me. You're obviously feeling depressed about us breaking up since you're going all emo goth again... But.'' I cut her off. ''But what Wendy? The other guy rejected you and you want to get back together? Cause I don't think I can go through this again.''

Wendy looked shocked at what I said. ''Stan... That's the last thing I thought I would hear you say. I figured you'd be begging to get back together again.'' I walked to my desk and sat down. ''Wendy... Not now please... I've had a crappy morning. I just found out my best friend doesn't trust me and I barely know anything about him.'' She looked puzzled at me. ''What are you talking about? Kyle trusts you completely. You even call yourselves Super Best Friends.'' I shook my head at her. ''No... Kyle doesn't trust me at all... He never even told me he dated someone... Or that they broke up cause Kyle didn't want to tell me about it.'' Wendy walked to me and put her hands on my shoulders. ''That's cause he didn't want to hurt you stupid.'' I was shocked by what she said. ''What?! You knew too? What the hell! Why did no one ever tell me...?'' She sat down on her knees in front of me and laid her arms in my lap. ''Stan... This is why I had to break up with you... Look at yourself. You're more emotional about him than you ever were with me.''

I stood up pushing her off of me. ''WHAT!?'' I looked down at her feeling angry. ''You broke up with me cause of KYLE?!?'' She nodded. ''You may not even see it. But you like him. Just admit it to yourself.'' I pointed to the door. ''Get out! I do NOT like Kyle like that.'' She got up off the floor and started walking out. She turned to face me while in the doorway. ''Stan... Don't hurt him any more. If you really don't feel that way about him, you need to tell him. Maybe then he can try and have a real relationship with someone.'' ''GET OUT!'' I yelled at her, slamming my bedroom door shut in her face. I laid down on my bed and put on my headphone. I put on some random music from Spotify and closed my eyes. I fell asleep for a little while. I woke up a couple hours later and went downstairs. Not one was home so I sat in the living room. I let my mind wander and I found I was thinking about Kyle. I shook my head to try clear it but the thoughts of him came right back. 'Why can I not get him out of my head now.. Damn Kenny and Wendy..''

I got up and went into the kitchen. I opened the fridge and grabbed a few of my dad's beers. I hated the taste, but I didn't want to be sober right now. I started to close the fridge door when I noticed a half full pint of whiskey in the back. I put the beer back, grabbed the whiskey, and went up to my room. I opened the bottle and took a swig. It was very different from the taste of vodka. It was sweeter and tasted a lot better. I slowly drank more of it enjoying the feeling it was giving me. Before I knew it, I had drank the whole thing. I stood up from my bed to throw the bottle in my trash bin and felt myself get light headed and dizzy before falling to the floor. I just sat on the floor for a little while until the room stopped spinning. I felt tears running down my cheeks again. ''Why can't I stop thinking about him now.. Could I really like him.. like that?'' I started imagining holding Kyle in my arms. I just laid on the floor while I let my mind wander freely. I started thinking about his face, about his lips. I opened my eyes as soon as the imagine appeared in my thoughts.

I decided I had to know for myself if it was true, and there was only one way I could think of. I grabbed my phone and texted Kyle. ''I need to see you. Can I come over?'' I didn't wait for a response before deciding to start heading over to his house. I left my room and went downstairs towards the front door. But when I opened the door, Kyle was already standing there. ''Uhh.. Hey.. I just got your text.. but I was already coming over to apologize to you about this morning..'' I stood there staring at him unsure about what to say or do. ''You going to let me in..?'' I snapped out of my thought and stood aside so he could come in. I walked back upstairs to my room with Kyle close behind me. I closed the door once we were inside and watched as Kyle jumped on my bed and rested his head on my pillow.