Story of My Life

Luke

I honestly don't even know where to start.

Luke is... wonderful. A gentleman. Charming. Sweet. Funny. Attractive. One of the best huggers in the world. Beautiful blue eyes.  Zane's best friend.

I met him at an open skate in 2012. We didn't talk much because at that point I was preoccupied with Zane. Although I knew that I felt someting for Luke, too.

In 2013, I returned to the weekly open skates and there he was, cuter than before, and we talked... a lot. As I learned more about him, I fell faster. I would look forward to every Sunday just to see him. And every Sunday ended with a glorious hug.

One night in December, our skating group ( a couple of my friends, and Zane/Luke) went to go see The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug. I, of course, sat by Luke. He put his arm around me, put his head on my shoulder, and tried holding my hand. It was great until the end when he got us all into trouble because he was talking the entire movie and people finally got mad and yelled at him. Thanks a lot.

Things went well for a while until I had to quit coming to open skates due to competitions and such. I got pretty busy for a month or so until one Sunday opened up and i came back. when I got onto the ice, he made a beeline towards me and exclaimed in the happiest voice, "You're back!" and wrapped me in a giant bear hug. He smelled so good. But he always does so..

That was the last open skate of the season.

The next weekend, I was planning on going to Midnight Bowling with Shayla. While I was in the shower, the doorbell rings, and my mom comes upstairs to tell me that Luke is here. Like, in my house. While I'm showering.

So I hurry and when I get downstairs, he's sitting on my couch like he has been in my house a million times before. We proceed to go outside and play hockey on my icy driveway. This turns into a snowball fight. That turns into a game of Pig using a flat basketball.

The next day, we had planned to go pond skating. I wake up and I'm so excited that I'm shaking. That day was the first time I had been pond skating since i was a little girl and he made every moment of it worthwhile.

After that day, we lost contact. He didn't call me, I tried calling him. We connected once or twice and that was it.

Summer begins and I get this random text out of the blue from an unknown number. It was Luke. And that's when the crushing started again. At first I thought it was a joke. I thought it was some sort of prank that Zane was playing on me. It wasn't. Soon Luke and I are talking everyday. Talking turns to flirting. Flirting turns to him telling me that he likes me.

He started calling me his girl and he made me feel beautiful and special. It was an amazing feeling. He started kissing my cheek when he hugged me. My heart always skipped a beat.

This all leads up to one night. My friend and I went to the fair and he just happened to be there for the demo derby. Instead of going to watch, he came over to us and we hung out for a couple hours. While we were walking through one of the barns, he reached for my hand and held it. Now, I have a personal rule for myself. I won't hold someone's hand unless we are dating. Don't ask why, it's just this thing. I decided to let it go just this once.

Later, when we were leaving to get a jacket from my friend's house, he walked us out to my car and tried holding my hand again. I stopped him this time and told him my rule. He seemed okay with it but also a little taken aback. Before we left, he hugged me and kissed my cheek and asked if I had a rule against that, too. I, of course, replied no. And he smiled his little smile and kissed my cheek again before walking away.

The next day, I don't hear much from him. His good morning text lacked its usual smiley face. I apologized for my rule and jokingly said that I could break it. He said he was glad I had rules.

Later on, I get this text telling me that we should just be friends because as a Catholic he shouldn't date until he is ready to get married. That he would hate to do something stupid and ruin our relationship. That he's sorry he lead me on.

I was hurt. So hurt. Nothing added up. You would think that that dating rule would be up front in your mind if you were making a girl feel this way and if you were acting this way around her. But I guess not.

Zane calls me about it and we spent 3 hours on the phone. Midnight is when it started so you can understand that a lot of secrets came out later on in the call. Zane informs me that Luke was telling him all along that he wasn't going to take it seriously. Zane didn't tell me about this earlier because he thought something might change.

After that confession, I was more angry about the situation rather than hurt. I was sort of mad at myself for liking him again because i knew about his faith and strict family rules. I didn't really care though because something was finally going my way and I forgot about the other possible outcomes of the situation.

I'm not really sure what to do about it at this point. I got over him really fast so maybe it was for the best.

We'll still be friends.

*Update*
Luke and I have the type of friendship now where it's like we are brother/sister. We can't go 5 minutes without teasing each other or beating up on one another. Being an only child, it's pretty great. We literally just do not care about what we look like or say when we are around each other, which isn't often , but when we are hanging out, it's so laid back and calm. When Zane and I started dating, he would tease us relentlessly and it was hilarious. When we broke up, he was there for me to talk to. I didn't do it often but if I needed to talk, he'd listen. I can say that while he makes some very questionable decisions in his life, I'm glad we've stuck it out this far and have maintained our friendship. He's really a great guy.