Aurora

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1 week later,
sanskar's farmhouse

Sunlight peeps through the folds in a room  a lady is shown sleeping whereas a man is sitting on a couch in front of the bed and staring at his love

Sanskar's pov
Life is so unpredictable  before some days I was so alone . I thought my life is never gonna  be same . Then I found my Shona and now god has given me another chance inform of  my baby and I'm not going to spoil anything this time ...  I know you are pretending to be fine Shona  I know that you have still not forgiven me but  I'll try  my best to repent for my every sin..

Morning rays brightens the room and sanskar startled by this hurriedly closes all the curtains . Once again seeing towards the bed he sighs in content as she sleeps peacefully .

I can never forget that morning
Still those flashes  haunts me her silent murmurs her pleas and restlessness
Everything was like a nightmare .my Shona changed so much now that she lost her own self ..that fearless swara has became a women who is scared of lights, open doors and it hurts so much that I'm the reason behind it .

Flashback,

Swara is sleeping on the middle of the bed with pillows around and drips attached to her hand. Sanskar is sleeping on a chair beside her keeping his head on  the bed .
Suddenly swara starts murmuring and sweating ... Sanskar wakes up as she starts rambling and squinting..

Sanskar tries to hold her and she pushes his hands being afraid..

Sanskar:   (Trying to hold her ) hey Shona ... Shona what happened . See nothing is wrong I'm here .. Shona

Swara : no.. no .... Pls don't do this pls ..pls pia... Pia help ...I don't want to go.. pls I'll never come out again pls leave me... pls turn  off  the light ... (Turns restlessly)Close the door or they will come again.
Sanskar: (stroking her hair ) who will come Shona see nobody is here..  you're safe  pls Shona wake up ....I'm here your sanskar is here (hugging her ) everything is fine ..

Sanskar releases her as she becomes stiff releasing her self she lies down closing her eyes.. sanskar watches as she tries to fake her sleep.

Swara: can you just leave me alone and yes... please turn of the lights it's disturbing my sleep.

Getting up from the bed sanskar switch offs all the lights in the room and closes all curtains.. sighing inaudibly he  moves to the balcony
And calls pia .

Flashback ends

Sanskars pov
And that day I realised the depth of the hurt that I've caused you .all that pain that you've endured  and it's all because of my mistake. I shouldn't have crossed my limits I shouldn't have left you Shona ( seeing her intensely) I know that you've not forgiven me  and even I don't deserve your forgiveness  but I'll bring my old Shona back no matter what I've to do ...

Pia looks at her friend sleeping  peacefully and her  husband sitting beside her  . Praying in her heart for both of their happiness  she knocks gaining his attention .
Seeing pia sanskar gets up, glancing one last time at her   he slightly pecks her forehead and moves outside her room .

This has been their daily routine , swara accepted to go with him when he asked her another chance. although her decision surprised him but once they got together he knew nothing was same . She has requested if she can take pia with them and he agreed . Pia was the only one that she would talk to .
It pained him to see her like this but he accepted thinking this as his punishment  and only way to stay beside her he tried to talk with her but Everytime he got only silence in response and one day she made it clear she doesn't want him Infront of her anymore that it hurts her Everytime he is around.

Night was the only time sanskar spends with his Shona staring her making sure she was alright .it was the only thing that kept him sane .
She would ignore him all day and after she sleeps he would come and stare her  making sure she is with him ... fine.

(Coming inside pia sits beside her)

Pia: ( chirping in a baby voice) good morning shonaa get up get up
(Caressing her face)see what I've made..

Chuckling at her overdramatic friend swara sits groggily
Swara:  what have you made that you're so happy hmm
Pia: (opening lid of bowl) see yourself
Looking inside the dabba lazily she squeals in surprise.
Seeing her favorite dahi vada her mouth waters instantly .
Swara : how did you know I wanted to eat this  leave it ....I'm gonna freshen up and don't dare to eye this ok it's only mine

Laughing at her excitement pia nods 
Seeing her rushing she sighs and gets lost in thoughts.....

Spending all this time in this house one thing that she knows for sure is sanskar loves her Shona di. She has seen him long for her one look .
her one smile would brighten up his day. her one nightmare would break him thousand times.
even when in morning she saw him cooking she wasn't sure what was in his mind but one look at swara's face and everything was clear
Feeling both of their love towards each other all she wanted was her shonas happiness her champs complete family .
and some times she wonders if everything that happened in their lives was his fault or their destiny .. some doubts , that nagging feeling that something somewhere is not right and sanskar would never hurt Shona like this ( get startled listening door creaking sound )

Swara : you know when I was in Kolkata na I used to eat it a lot and yesterday after eating lunch I got this strong urge to eat . Thank you so much 😘
Taking bowl from her hands she sniffs it cutely before she takes a bite
her eyes widens after eating  and only thing  that comes in her mind is " sanskar"

(Seeing her pale face)
Pia : what happened you didn't liked it or what .... Wait let me taste it

Trying to take bowl from her hands but seeing her serious face her hands  stop

Swara : who made this pia .
(Eyes filling up with tears)
I told you I don't want to see that man that it hurts Everytime I see him and you knowingly brought this .

Pia: but he is repenting Shona he made this for you with out even asking and you...
(stops her showing her hand )
Swara : I don't want to hear anything just take it away from me (turning her face other side)

Pia : ( frustratingly) Shona why are you doing this, one side you accept him after everything and  came to live with him again and now you don't even want him near you.
you said you need privacy he left this room you said that you don't want him near you he doesn't even show his face if you can't stand him why did you came in his life again ...why

Swara : seeing her with pain .. because I want to hurt him.,.

because I want him to feel that pain of rejection I endured ,I accepted his request because I'm afraid I don't want another swara in this world . whenever I think about this child only thing I can think of is she/he should never be like their mother ..broken, hurt , scared and rejected.. (wiping her tears smiling sadly) this is his punishment pia . he knows me and the thought that I'm only here because I don't want my child to be like me will break him and I want him to feel that.
I don't want my child to be called  names . I want him to have his father's name . I want him to have a life that I never had and I'll give him that life even if that requires me to live with him then I'll live
Because this swara survived but she can't see another swara to be born  .

Outside their room

Sanskar stumbles listening her inner feelings . He sits on floor leaning on the wall .seeing at far distance tears roll down his eyes  brain clouded with all the voices .
One thought comes in his mind
'My Shona is gone '

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I know it's not worth the wait and I don't know what I've wrote
Sorry

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Payal