Angels in disguise

Chapter 1

Back then in the early days of November was the time I accepted God into my heart. I didn't know much about being a religious person until that day.

My name is Lauren. Lauren Isabelle Anderson. I'm fourteen and a half. Bright coloured skin, dark brown hair, mature looking and dark brown eyes. I'm an emo, but that doesn't mean I'm not as innocent as I look.

I'v been internet friends with Jason since the last days of December. Jason's just a year older than me.
The thing is, is that my dad doesn't know about the what I have in common with him because he's strict with being overprotective in a intensive way. He only knows his age. But my mom? She's protective of me too, just not the same way as my dad is.

And having God in my heart is the best thing I could have. I accpeted him for many good reasons. I did that because I wanna help other people, I wanna inspire them the way how my favorite singer inspired me for being a Christ follower herself, I need God to cleanse away my sins with his forgiveness every time I do something wrong, which is the most important reason, and I also wanna create my own legacy so that people would remember who I was as. Even as a Christian.

Both Jason and I are always trying to be good people. And it's true that everyone else is all trying to do the same thing, although there's just a lot of things we're struggling with in our lives. But we don't just try to be that way for the people who convinced us to believe in God, but to do what God asks us to do for him. Despite that I'm an emo and Jason's an emo too, some people are just seeing us like we're not Christians. But they wouldn't know our stories behind our religious faiths unless we speak truthfully about it.

This is how Jason and I met:
I scrolled through posts and stuff on the internet until I saw a post from Jason. So I liked and reshared that post and asked my followers to follow him. Of course, he thanked me for that. I didn't know who he was until I got to know him more. Also, he even told me about his faith of being a Christ follower and I did too.

I once prayed that God would help me follow my heart in order for me to find someone to become my soulmate. And I did. This whole time, I knew that soulmate would be Jason. But we're not even soulmates. Right now, we're still just friends.

"Anyone who gets a shoutout will always become a new friend." That's what I said to Jason on the day I met him.

Some people know what it's like to have God inside their hearts, and some of them don't. Not just because they don't believe in him, but because they don't know what's the real meaning behind the word "Forgiveness."

When someone like my mom blames me for doing something that I start to realize is wrong, she sometimes says "God will punish you." But if someone tells you anything like that, it's not the truth. You'll just simply need to ask God to forgive you while you send a prayer to him if that happens.

Ironically, I just get guilty every time I hear a word like that coming from anyone who tries to blame me thinking that it's my fault. But if you seriously need forgiveness, you do. You can't just go on and think that someone's gonna be mad at you for something. Or even expect something bad to happen to you.

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There's been some wrong little things that I've done to Jason that I thought was gonna make him mad. After that, I realized that it was all a mistake.

So I talked to him about what I did. "Jason, I know that this is something I shouldn't have done, but I was actually talking about you to my friends and my dad overheard the conversation we were having. So he found out and I didn't know. I remember what I was talking about, but I just didn't know what I was doing.

I just wanna say that I'm really sorry I did that. But I hope you're not mad at me or anything.

I don't know if you're interested or not, but I was hoping that maybe if we met in person, we can both be Christians together. Or maybe it's just that you have a different religion.

If you don't want to, that's totally fine." I messaged him and I was the one who said that.

[Jason]
"I am a Christian. It's just that I don't wanna show that side of me. It was my stepdad that convinced me in being a Christian 'cause he was a huge Christian.
He abused me and that's why my parents got separated.
I'm scared of being a Christian. But because of my past, I already have Christ in me." He replied.

Maybe his stepfather might've forcefully made him become a Christian. Maybe he just didn't do it the right way. Maybe Jason's ashamed that people are gonna make fun of him for having the Christian religion that his stepdad involved him with.
I don't know why he would abuse his own son, but it was great knowing that Jason was a Christian too.

But if I were him, I'd rather just convince anyone to be a Christian in a good way and let them make their decision on choosing God or Satan. Pressuring anyone on being a Christian is not my intention at all. I just give them tips and advices on being a Christ follower.

Some older people think that it's right to judge people just because of what colours they wear, even dark ones, but when you see the good they have in them, you'll eventually start to figure out how they've been kind to you. Even when they have Christ in their hearts, I wouldn't be the one to judge them.
But after that, you could get blamed by your own actions sometimes. Usually that doesn't happen too often.

This is my advice to every single person out there who is ashamed of showing off their religion and pretending not to be a religious person. Just let me tell you there is no shame in showing people that you believe in God. Just know that it doesn't matter whether you're Catholic or Christian because both of those two religions believe in God.

You don't have to be scared if you think anyone's gonna judge you when you're the one wuo's talking about your religious faith, you don't have to be scared if anyone's gonna give you negative words, just ignore those things. All you really need to use is courage and bravery in order to trust in the Lord.
Negativity can easily bring you down into a hard feeling that it can make you think and remember how horrible it is, but whoever keeps giving you a bad opinion about how you look and everything— Those are all lies.
I'm not just telling you that you should be yourself, but if you do believe in God, you should be who he wants you to be. Not what the world wants you to be.