S.A.D || a cordae story!

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Ella

I awoke from my slumber when I heard someone knocking incessantly on my bedroom door. I squinted my eyes as I tight as I could to try to block out the noise, but it wasn't working. It was just driving me even crazier.

I sprang up from my bed, pissed off, and stomped to my door and swung it open, revealing Mama TiTi in a flowy sundress and black, sparkly sandals.

"What you doin' in there?" she asked me.

I squinted my eyes at her and looked at my outfit then back at her. "Sleeping?" I responded more like a question.

"Girl, it's nearly 1 in the afternoon, come on. Get dressed." she said stepping into my room and sat on my bed.

"Why? Where we going?" I asked climbing back into bed.

"I'm going out to lunch and to the spa with some girlfriends. I just don't want you to be here by yourself," she said to me.

I looked at her confused. "What about Nick? Isn't he gonna be here?"

She shook  her head. "No, he's 'bout to leave to the movies or whatever with his friends."

"You're just gonna have to go with him." she shrugged.

My eyes widened in fear. "W-what? With his friends? Oh no no no, I can't TiTi. I can't be with his friends, probably whom I've never even met before... I-it's just too much I..." I began to trip over my words at the thought of being around other people that weren't just Nick. I mean, meeting his friend Cordae was stressful enough, now I have to see more of them.

I felt TiTi's hand rub soothing circles on my back. "Hey.... El, honey. You'll be fine. I promise you there's nothing to be nervous about. They're just people."

"But they're young, teenage people who happen to be hormonal males." I shot back, feeling my headache grow stronger and my stomach starting to feel weird.

TiTi chuckled at me. "Baby, listen. You're going to be fine. Remember what I've been telling you. Don't think about it too much. Don't stress yourself. And besides, you love movies. I don't think there's ever been a time where you passed up going to the movies. "

I looked at her and then looked down at my fiddling fingers. I nodded my head, agreeing to what she was saying.

She has finally stood up and gave me a kiss on my forehead, caressing my wild curly hair. "You'll be fine. Just make sure to take your medication with you, and before you leave the house okay?"

I smiled and nodded my head. 

"Now get dressed. My friend should be here any second to pick me up, so, you're gonna ride with Nick." she said closing the door behind her.

I took a deep, shaky breath and stood up, grabbing a towel, and some undergarments before stepping into the bathroom to complete my routine.

After stepping out the shower, hot steam clouded the mirror and just for fun, I swiped a hand across it to reveal only my eyes and some of my hair.

I sighed and I rubbed shea moisture all over my body and I slipped on my under and bra. The last song from my speaker faded out and the intro to "Recognize" by PARTYNEXTDOOR began to play and I instantly got hype.

"You got niggas, and I got bitches

You got niggas, and I want you

I want you, to turn up on me 

Every night when I see you," I sang along, opening the bathroom and danced a little.

I did a little turn and I realized that my door was open and Nick was standing there, staring at me.