Dearest,
I don't remember the last time I could breathe. It feels like there's a hole inside my chest where my lungs and my heart should be. And everytime I tried to breathe I can feel its dull ache yet I feel so numb at the same time.
Is it possible to feel everything and nothing all at once?
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You've been skipping classes more often and the other people are starting to notice it. I notice it. I tried to talk to you, tried to catch your eye in the sea of people, I tried to reach to you. I tried.
But it just feels like you're drifting away. From me. From us. From the world.
I caught you staring at me when I went to the library and you don't know how much air my lungs inhaled when that happened. But as soon as you walked away every oxygen turned into something deadly and I was just left there standing with the dull aching pain resonating inside my ribs.
And the question I've been wanting to ask since you've been cold to me.
Why?
