Michael Clifford: Baby Mess

Chapter 17- Conversations

Lisa's P.O.V

I took Luke's advice and went and talked to Ashton. I found him sitting in his hotel room crying with his head in his hands mumbling things about being a screw up. I decided to just take the nice approach and go and sit next to him and embrace him in a big bear hug. I patted his back and just told him to let it all out, which he did. Once he finally calmed down a bit I thought it was a good time to talk to him.

'Hey Ash. I'm really sorry. I know I was busy and ignoring you every time you tried to tell me and I knew it I was just stressed and my hormones are going crazy and look, now I'm fucking crying.' I said as I looked down vigorously wiping the tears falling from my red bloodshot eyes onto my cheeks. 'I don't hate you Ash. I sad the stupid one. It's not your fault. I probably led you on and then I sept with 3 if you and I just feel like such a mess, such a whore.' By now I was full on crying. 'And you know what? All you 4 boys have been nothing but nice to me and I just feel like shit knowing that I'm ruining your lives and holding you back on this tour. ' I continued

'Lis chill out it's all good! Your not a whore you just made a mistake and now you get two beautiful kids out of it. And you have been nothing but nice to US. There is no way we can ever repay you for this tour. You are basically handing us our career and any success we make will be because of you.' Ash said

'Thanks Ash.' I said

'No worries Lis. Don't stress yourself out too much ok? It's not healthy.' He replied

After all of that management called AGAIN. What do they want now ?!

L: hello?

M: hello Lisa it's management

L: yeah I know, I saw the caller ID

M: we were just informing you that you have a show tomorrow night which starts at 6:00 pm but you must be at the Dandilion Stadium (made it up don't judge ;) ) before 4:00 so we can get through sound check and hair and makeup.

L: ok thank you. Is that all?

M: there is one more thing actually .... Could you please remind the boys about your sound check? They need to come aswell. To get some tips off of you about performing in an arena.

L: alright

M: also since you were in hospital for 3 days , will you still be flying to the UK to your recording studio in 2 days time?

L: yep no worries. Thank you. Yes I can cirtainly make it over to the UK with the boys. Talk to you soon bye bye now.

M: by Miss Hemmings

'What did they want?' Ash asked me

'Oh I'll explain it when all of you are together so I don't have to explain it a million times'

'Wait Lisa'

'Yea Ash?'

'What are we?'

'What do you mean?'

'Like...what's our relationship staus?'

'I told you Ash'

'What? Your still breaking up with me?'

'Im sorry Ash...it's just it's not you it's me...'

Whats wrong babe...I...I can help.' He looked like a lost, sad puppy and honestly.....it was heartbreaking.

'Ash I just think we are better as friends. Fake relationship or real relationship I don't care.'

'So this is it huh?'

'Yea...' I sadly said 'can I ask you one question though?' I continued

'Of course'

'Did you mean it?' I asked

'Did I mean what?' He said, clearly confused

'Did you mean it...when you said you loved me?' I responded

He paused for a while before he responded with 'yea I did' but I it didn't seem convincing after the long pause.

'Ashton Fletcher Irwin, do not lie to me. Say what you want. It won't change my mind I just need to know.' I demanded, showing all seriousness

'I did mean it Lis. I do love you but...in a more sisterly way.' He responded

'Good because I feel the same way' I smiled

After that we decided to go find the rest of the boys so I could tell them about tomorrow.

'Hey guys' I greeted as I walked and sat down on the couch in between Michael and Luke.

'Hey's' and 'hi's' were exchanged. I closed my eyes for a moment just zoning out with my head back when I felt someone lightly shaking me out of my trance. Calum.

'Lis. You ok? You zoned out.' He laughed

'Yeah I'm good. What's up?'

'We were just wondering what was going on with the whole management thing. Ash said they called and you had to tell us all something.'

'Oh yeah, right um...you have to all be at Dandelion Stadium by 4:00 tomorrow night because we have a show at 6:00.'

'Why so early? We usually don't come until an hour before the show starts.' Michael asks being the lazy Cliffoconda he is.😋

'Well these aren't my words and it sounds really cocky coming from my mouth but they want you to watch my sound check and get tips from me about performing in an arena.' I said, making quotation marks around 'tips from me'

'Oh. Right well I'm gonna order some pizza for dinner. Anyone want one?' Michael asked

'Ooooooo me me me pleassseeee!!!' I screamed out

Everyone just laughed at me.

'Hey I'm eating for three and the babies want it so deal with it.' I replied with a smirk

'Screw you for not looking fat.' Luke said to me

'Hey well look at you Mr tall, skinny, lanky Ladd huh? What's your problem?' I replied

'Its just.....'

'What is it Luke?'

'Im getting hate that's all. People are calling me fat and telling me I eat to much.' He said to me quietly, barely above whisper I must add.

'Don't listen to them Luke. Hey look at me?' I said listing his face by the chin with my finger, 'you'll be skinnier then me for sure for the next 9 months so don't you worry about a thing and guess what?' I continued

'What?' He asked with tears in his eyes

'Your the skinniest in the band so don't worry. Your far from fat. None of you are.' I whispered in his ear. He smiled at this and I wiped his tears away with the pad if my finger.

'What are you too whispering about over there huh?' Ashton asked

'Just some dirty little secrets I think Ash.' Calum said

I gasped at this and so did Luke. I threw a pillow at him while Luke yelled ewwwwww.

'Yuck! Incest guys! It's illegal !!' Michael screamed

We all burst out laughing at this and soon the pizza Mikey ordered came and we all ate and went to bed as it had been a kind if long day with lots of discussions. Michael slept beside me tonight and as soon as my head hit the pillow I was out like a light, ready to see what tomorrow had in stall for us.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I can not stress enough how sorry I am that I haven't updated frequently and quickly enough and I feel super bad about it so I'll try and make it up to you ...on a happier note (well for me) ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! And it's 12:28 am haha lol. But anyways you guys probably don't wanna know my life story so stay strong, ily. Vote, comment, share!! ~5SOSashtonforeverxx