Wonderful Things

Terrible Things

Terrible Things

Meg took one last look at me,leaning down and kissing my head before she left me and a confused William who grinned and clenched his jaw at her tears. "I'll go make you a cup of tea, alright babe?"  William gave me a tired smile and leaned down sealing his lips with mine. I felt comfort from his touch and emptyness when he pulled away, nodding for him to go on.

Valerie was sleeping peacefully, and I watched her for a while before realizing she should probably be in her crib. I pushed the blankets off of me and prayed to god before slowly pushing my body off of the bed. I whimpered and breathed hard, taking a moment before slowly turning around to face Valerie. 

It was not long till Toby and Diana came in gasping at me that I was out of bed. I quickly wiped my eyes and choked out a chuckle, smiling as they once again grabbed my hands and pulled me back to the bed carefully.  "Mommy you should be resting!!" Toby practically scolded me and I got under the sheets, letting Diana tuck me in. My vesion bean to blur and I blinked repeatedly to gain it back, not realizingthe tears streaming down my face. "Mommy..w-why are you crying?" Toby choked out, looking at me terrified. I shook my head to try and reassure him everything was okay, but his blue eyes only looked at me with sadness and worry. 

"Nothing I'm just..I'm really tired" I started, " I'm really sick and I'm gonna have to sleep..for a really long time. But you guys are gonna have daddy..and he's gonna be there when I'm gone. But I don't want anyone to cry, okay? A day is gonna come.. and IM gonna see all of you again. You guys will take care of daddy right?.."  I questioned the twins that looked at me with plain faces. They were confused, and I could not just be straight forward with four year olds. They had to know that they will be okay..I needed to convince myself that too. I wanted them all to be okay.

Toby and Diana promised me and kissed me one at a time. I hugged them so tight, not carring they wined or me to let go. They only giggled and said "goodnight mommy." Diana still had that bright smile and I prayed to god she keeps it, Toby holding my hand longer while Diana ran off to their room. I only smiled, and turned my head over to Toby who kept asking me if I really had to sleep. "Get better soon, mommy" Toby said softly and kissed my warm hand, smiling at me. I nodded my head and Toby let me go,waving at me and William and yelling goodnight.

William's entire expression changed when he took a better look at me, looking as if he feared anything that I would say or do right now. I felt my eyes heat up with more tears threathening to roll down my sore eyes to my cheeks, my lips trembled as I watched William place the cup of tea down and come coser to me.

"C-can I tell you a terrible thing?" I choked out and William's eyes began to become glassy, making me more nervous about the bomb I was ready to drop on him.

" Weeks have passed..and I've been getting really sick." I continued without waiting for a reply, my eyes meeting his. " I-It seems now that I've only got days...maybe just hours..Please don't be sad now I really believe you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me."

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