Wonderful Things

Is This a Nightmare Or Reality?

Harry closed the door after himself, his eyes looking down the entire time as he came closer and sat at the right of my bedside, pulling the chair a bit closer. He had the same expression as William, except he was on the edge of crying, his face pale, and the roses in his hand close to falling. "You remembered to bring me pretty flowers but not a subway?" I said jokingly as I gave him a small smile, knowing he knew what was wrong. I wish I was the one to tell him the right way, but I guess that nurse did not know how to shut the hell up.

He remembered the flowers and threw them harshly at my bedside, his face changing from sadness to pure anger. He smiled at me, the white of his eyes turning pink from the tears he held back. " you're fucking dying and you want subway? Seriously Alison is that all you are going to say to me?" He was trying hard to keep his temper down, though he was yelling.

I bit the inside of my cheek, reaching for one of the roses and holding it up.

"I-I'm sorry Harry I wanted to tell you, W-William, and Meg I just don't know how" I looked at him and he laughed, shaking his head and sniffing his nose. A tear fell down to his cheek and I can not feel any worst than this. I forced my self to lean forward, taking his hand, looking at him and trying to get him to look at me. I can't even remember how long I've known him.

We go back far since 7th grade. He wss the closest person to me other than Meg, who would go crazy if i told her, or if anyone told her. "Please don't be sad, don't cry" I nearly whimpered and he refused to look at me as more tears came down his face. If we were home right now he would turn my living room into a dumpster with all that he would let his anger out on.

I had this talk with the doctor yesterday before William came back. She told me I would not make it, not after a few weeks. I didn't know anything about Valerie till today, all that I was told yesterday that I am sick and I've only got weeks. I might be better now but I will get sicker than this fro eternal bleeding they can't fix, unless they put me to sleep like a poor animal. I  refused..death will have to wait till I'm able to see my daughter, to know she's ok, and to hold her tight.

 All that matters is she's ok right now. All that matters to me is what is left of my family.

My dad was a cop that got shot on the job when I was only 6, my mother died when she gave birth to me. All I had was my older brother Michael who is 14 years older than me. He raised me, tought me. Infact,he quit school and worked two jobs to care for us.

 I wanted to help out but all he wanted me to do was go to school and cook cause he sucked at it. Him and I never got along, hated eachother sometimes.  But he was the only family I had. Now he is 36 years old living three towns away from me with his own little family to care for. He had a daughter named after me, and two older sons. And here I am, unable to care for my family. Infact, all I will be doing now is leaving them to be miserable.

"You cant just stay in someone's life for so long and then decide to leave." His voice was not as loud as it was 10 minutes ago, saying it a if i had chose this to happen. All he has done was yell, curse me, and tell me that its not fair. I broke down in tears too many times to count.his eyes were sore and red, and so were mine.

I covered my face with my hands as I wiped my dried and wet tears away. I am scared, so scared. It seemed so unreal to me that I only have weeks left to live, or that I can just ask the doctor to put me out of my misery now, which he said was highly recommended. Though all I could think about was my little twins..and how I was going to tell William and Meg. I was not even planning on telling Harry, at least not yet nor this way.

"I-I'm sorry that its this way...but you cant keep talking to me like its my damn fault! God wanted it to happen, so its gonna happen. I know it'll be hard but once apon a time you lived without me..you can do it again Harry..please don't be sad now I'm asking you please. You know that I love you, and I never want to see you this sad cause of me. Trust me I can't feel any shitier than this." I made clear, looking at him even though he refused to look back.

The room got quiet after what I had said, Harry looking over at the door and taking a deep breath in. The little sticker things on my hands began to bother me, and my vision became blurry. I sighed and layed back, my head pounding, making me feel as if my eyes were to pop out. Closing my eyes, I rested my hand on my tummy. pretending that Valerie never left, smiling to myself, and from afar I can hear Harry calling me.

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"Mommy! Mommy!" they shouted at me and I turned around slowly as I rested my hands at my hips. They each took a hand of mine and jumped up and down, "Can we please please go to the park!?" They both repeated "Please" after Toby asked, giving me those irresistible puppy faces as their Dad sipped his hot tea, watching.

"Baby I'm so tired. Not today, okay?" I ruffled Toby's hair with a small smile.

"C'mon I'll buy you a Subway!" Harry cheered,

" We will have another little monkey running around." William said and I laughed.

"WATCH OUT!!" Harry screamed.

My eyes flung open and I gasped, my fingers slightly twitching. Meg, Harry, and William all were sitting around me. I felt as if I was going to burst into tears re-living it in my dream. I looked up at them and smiled a bit, William and Meg smiling back. "Bad dream?" Meg asked as she sat in the chair next to me, and reached for a hug. I practically Tackled her, hugging her tightly, seeing Toby and Diana behind her.

they looked at me, their cheery faces darker now and drained from energy, though they lit up when they saw me look at them. Meg tried to pull away after a while, but I did not allow her at first. slowly, I let go and she smiled down at me, that big beautiful smile. I already knew that was one of the things I'll miss about her other than..well everything.

She moved out the way to allow me to see my two beautiful dirty blonde haired twins. I kept my arms wide open.

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This is my first ever written story and it will be ending soon, and much more will be happening.

Is valerie leaving the nursry before her mother's death?

Is her mother's short life even going to end?