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Because I had you

I'm sitting in a plane. My phone is already in my hand for 10 minutes. I keep staring at the number that's already on the screen. Everyone around me knows what's going on in my head, but they keep quiet. It's probably the best thing they could do though.

It's the number of the love of my life. I've wanted to call her for so long now, but I can't because we ended things last year. All the touring and her being home for school cracked our relationship. After a lot of arguments, we decided to break up so that we could go our own way. Me touring and she building her career, her life.

The weakest choice I realise now, even though it's too late. I saw an Instagram post of her and her new boyfriend today. It's a picture of her showing a promise ring with him sitting beside her, both smiling like crazy. I wanted to call them to wish them a happy life or something, but I can't. I just still love her so much.

I lock my phone and throw it on the seat next to me. I grab my backpack and get my headphones. The music blasts through my ears, but I can still hear her cute little laugh in my mind. I reach for the volume button but Andrew stops me. I put my headphones off and look at him.

"What are you doing? I'm an adult. I can make my own decisions."

Andrew raises an eyebrow at me, making me even more mad.

"Well you're not acting like one. Start doing that first and then we'll talk."

I sigh and run to the planes bedroom, thinking why I even obey this. A few minutes later Andrew comes in the room.

"Listen you really need to talk to her man." He sighs when I don't respond to him. "Shawn you've got a big show ahead. Don't mess it up because of some girl thats roaming around in your head." I turn to him quickly and give him a deadly glare.

"You don't understand any of it, do you?" I pause to indicate if he even cares. "That's the love of my life who's running through my head. Not some girl! How dare you talking about her like that"

"Y/N?" Andrew asks.

"Yes of course Y/N! I loved her so much, still do.." A tear escapes my eye, but I still smile by the thought of her.

"Then why don't you call her?"

"It's too late. She has a new boyfriend. I can't just call her to tell her I love her. I just have to find another girl. Someone I'll love forever but I know she'll never be as good as Y/N." Andrew nods.

"Do what feels best man. You can always try and call her. Maybe that can be a way to get over her. You decide."

And with that words he left. Leaving me splitted in half.