Always You

Chapter 29

Lily PoV

I don't think it was a good idea to invite James to my room. We just kissed and the unknown feeling in the pit of my stomach was too strong to ignore. Like I wanted more of him, but I really need to confirm something.

I was about to open my door when James stopped my hand.

"Lily, I don't think this is a good idea." He murmured painfully, and from that, I know we feel the same. He barely controls himself.

"You're right James. Let's look at it tomorrow." I said to help him for our own good.

"Good night." He murmured and he hesitantly grabbed my cheeks and kissed me, my forehead to be clear.

Goodness, I realized how I badly wanted to kiss him again but I can't, seeing how he controlled himself.

"You just don't know how happy I am, sunshine." He said with a sweet smile.

"I feel the same, James," I replied with a sweet smile mimicking him.

"Why do you call me, sunshine?" I asked as I'm not ready to say good night.

He just chuckled and soon I saw a faint red in his ears, it is cute of him.

"Do you really want to know?" He asked as if he will about to embarrass himself to me.

"Of course, I don't think sunshine is my second name." I gave him a teasing look.

"Well, you are to me, the moment you stepped into our mansion."

"Oh." I don't think I can handle his next words of flattery.

"Your smile and your bubbly attitude brighten one's day."

"I think that's enough, I get it. I'm the light in your life." I joked.

"You are, and I'm sorry if it took too long to be back my sunshine." He said with a deep look in his eyes.

"Please don't be sorry, we already passed that. Why don't we make the best of your remaining time, instead?" The more I added the sadness in his eyes.

"Why do you make it sound as if I'll be leaving so soon?"

"Because you are, and by just thinking of it, I already miss you, James."

"I can't anymore handle this. You told me that you were okay but only to  find out you are just holding it inside." He said, and then he opened my door dragging me inside.

"Let's start making the best of our time." He said while locking the door.

"James," I said, as I don't know what to say at the moment.

I am not ready for this.

"Oh, sunshine. Let just sleep together. I promise I will not do anything to you, unless you will ask for it." He said the last part in a teasing tone.

I sighed in relief but the little devil inside me was a bit disappointed, we can kiss though.

"Why are you still standing? Please clean yourself while I ready your bed." He commanded.

His words made the little devil inside me to roar, there's no need to say that, but he was right as I realized how sticky I feel. I don't think, it's a good idea to share my bed with him for the first time with a sticky skin, so I clean myself in the cleanest way I can.

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We were lying on the bed for thirty minutes already. I am very sensitive with his moves, the shifting sound of my blanket and his deep breath.

"I won't do anything to you but can I hug you tonight?" He murmured.

James is gentleman down to the bone.

"Yeah," I said softly and later, I found his arms slowly reaching my waist.

I hold my breath with his action and release them when he is already hugging me. I don't think I can sleep well tonight.

The next second was electrifying. He slowly moves his body next to mine as I can feel the heat from him, and the moment he sniffed at the base of my neck was heart stopping.

"Hmmm..." He continued, unaware of the effect he had given me, from a heart-stopping to a loud drum in my chest.

"I love you, Liliane." He murmured, and he sniffed one more time, then followed his steady breathing.

How can he sleep in a situation like this?

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