Things picked up
You told me what I wanted to hear
That you missed me
That you loved me
That I was still babe
That I'm still, and always will be family
That no one understands you like I do
I don't think you know how good that felt
That's all I want.
To feel important to you
You don't have to be in love with me
Just care
And be my friend
I'll be yours
There's still lot's you wont tell me
But that's okay
If it will break my heart don't tell me
If you truely love someone else now,
Dont tell me
Let's keep this happiness maintained
Because I'm scared of a change
If you and her break up though,
It doesn't mean I'll take you back
You might think you have options
And maybe I want you to think so
Maybe I'm still in love with you like crazy
But I don't trust you
And she shouldn't either
But who would I rather back up?
The girl who took you from me
Or you, the one I love?
Is that even a question?
I'll keep every secret for you
Because it's what we share with eachother
Secrets
It's all I have of you
And all you have of me
That she can't be a part of too
We have all of eachother still
And can't help not saying 'I love you' when we split our ways
I have all of you
And you have all of me
The only thing that bothers me anymore
Is the fact that you're letting her have parts of you that were mine
And they're still mine
But I don't like to share
This is all nonesense to someone who reads it
I don't write it to put on a show
It just feels good for ME
To know someone read this.
Anyone read this.
What do I miss?
The list is endless but I'm going to try
Playing Xbox with you
Watching you talk to my brother like you wanted him to be your brother too
You talking to my step mom behind my back about how much you loved me
I hated that. Now I wish I hadn't hated it so much
I miss holding hands
Kissing against walls
Sneaking into places we shouldn't be, just for a better kiss
I miss you calling me beautiful
Sexy
Baby
I miss when you were mean to me
When you picked on me and made fun of me
When you tested my abilities by telling me something was bad
Making me motivated to do better
I miss when I would raise my eyebrows and look at you like 'really... really Cole."
And you would do it back
And it would make me mad because I couldn't stay serious
The same way I've never been MAD at you.
Just hurt
I miss making out infront of a crowd of people because we don't give a fuck what they think
I miss you being proud to call me your girlfriend...
I remember that first day at school that we had dated
I was nervous to hear what people thought
You werent
You were proud
You wanted to show me off to everyone
You were so proud to get the girl you wanted
I barely had a crush on you at first
I just dated you because you were a good guy and I knew you deserved what you wanted
Then I fell for you
Way too hard
And when I needed you to pick me up
You did
You made me a different person
I have higher self esteem
More self respect
A clearer vision of the world
Different insight.
I'm not ready to let that go
And you don't want to let go of me either
You love me
You said it yourself
You said yourself that you wanted me as a friend
That I've helped you through too much for you to let go of me
I just hope that if something goes wrong
And I run away from you again
That you chase me.
I hope I'm truely worth that much to you
Because you're truely worth that much to me.
