Push and Pull | Liskook ✔

19. "I deserved better than that." (Narration)

3rd person point of view

"Tsk. Come here."

Yoongi softly said, his face was somewhat annoyed yet deep inside he was really worried, and he knew Lisa knows that.

Lisa smiled despite the tears that were about to fall, she then encircled her arms to her Yoongi oppa and he enveloped her too with his warm hug.

"You're not fine." he pointed out.

"I am not fine." she agreed, her face buried on his chest.

It was really hard to make her admit that she isn't fine because she always felt that saying she's not will just affect others. She thinks that everyone has their own worries and problem and she wouldn't want to add to that by admitting she isn't okay, so she just kept silent and put on a smile. But Min Yoongi has his ways to make her admit her deepest honest feelings.

He sighed feeling the pain of his favorite dongsaeng.

"Then cry."

He huffed jokingly, "I wouldn't mind getting my favorite shirt get soaked by your tears."

Lisa giggled at his dry humor she always adored, "Knowing this is your favorite shirt makes me want to cry more." she joked back.

She heard him laughed, she always loved hearing him laugh, it makes her feel so happy and safe.

You see, Yoongi was always misunderstood by the majority of the human population as the cold and heartless boy, but Lisa knows he is far from that. He always gave her warmth hugs and advices, he always showered him his gummy smiles whenever she was sad, he became the older brother she never had, and she knew he treated her like his little sister too. Yes, he was serious and quiet, but once you get close to him you'll know he is more than that serious dude who will choose sleep over anything. He knows her deepest honest feelings, specially how much she was hurting but he made her feel like those things about her were safe from him.

She was more than thankful, she has a Min Yoongi in her life.

"Are you done wasting water from your body? Can I step inside now? The ice cream's melting already."

Lisa's face lit up the moment he said ice cream, Yoongi shook his head with a small smile on his face at her expression and went inside. He went to their kitchen and grabbed one spoon, he gave that to Lisa same with one gallon of ice cream- he knew she wouldn't finish and her favorites, fries.

"You're the best, Min Yoongi jjang!" she said excitedly like a kid.

"Don't say something the world already knows." he just said monotonously while watching her digged in like she didn't eat for a whole year.

"Are they really coming here?" Lisa asked.

"Sadly they all are, those fuckers invited themselves."

"But I'm already well."

Yoongi smiled when he saw the ice cream stained face of hers, "You are well, I'm glad. Now, clean your face first and let's talk."

"I just realized I don't want to talk about that anymore, can I?" she asked him warily with a pout.

"No escaping, I've came all the way here already."

Lisa huffed like a child, "Fine. Then let's talk now oppa."

Min Yoongi first removed the ice cream on her face and then smiled, "Are you hurt?" he started to ask her.

He noticed how Lisa wouldn't admit something if you didn't ask her about it directly to the point.

Lisa frowned, "I am hurting up until now."

"Why? Do you want me to lay a punch on that brat's face?" he smirked.

Lisa glared at him playfully, "I'll be the one to do that in the future, just wait."

Yoongi laughed, "Make sure I'll be there to witness that."

Lisa then frowned again, "But seriously, please don't hurt him physically, or anything, treat him like how you are normally treating him, it wasn't his fault that I am hurting, he is like your younger brother."

"Typical goody too shoes Lalisa Manoban, fine, I will not punch the kid.... not that hard."

Lisa laughed again loudly, "Whatever Yoongi."

"Come on, tell me everything." he said softly.

Lisa sighed while playing with her food, "I told you how I am mentally begging for him to say no right? I felt so stupid and selfish, specially when he told me he'll do it and he'll stay away from me, I was asking him to stay away from me yet deep inside I don't want him to and I'm hoping he wouldn't, yet there he goes again shattering those hopes."

Yoongi nodded urging her to go on.

"H-he told me that he is already courting eonnie and I was glad about that because he was finally making a move to make her his, but of course selfish thoughts started to consumed my mind, I thought how about me now? Does that mean Jungkook will never be mine? But I set those thoughts aside quickly because I felt terrible for even thinking those."

Yoongi pat her head when he saw her crying already, "What's with all these crying? Argh. This is so tiring to be honest." Lisa said.

"But it makes you feel better right? Instead of bottling everything inside." Yoongi asked wanting to make her feel better, making Lisa nod.

"I woke up a while ago expecting him beside me but he wasn't, and at that moment, I decided that this should stop. This same cycle we both are in. I don't want him to be always there with me and gave me reasons to want him more only to be put aside the next day."

Lisa stopped and smiled softly, "As you said, I deserve better than that."

"Fucking hell, I'm so proud of you." Yoongi said happily and hugged her.

Please, I really want to forget him and this feelings I have for him.

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I did three updates in a row. What? Lol. I'm so proud of myself too.

And Yoongi and Lisa's sister-brother relationship is uwu worthy.

So there, this is kinda short, but still enjoy!

PS. Let me abused this new found will of mine to update before laziness strikes again lol