song: Just a Little Bit of Your Heart( by Ariana Grande)////If I Could Fly( by my babies)
Cam and I are sitting on my front porch eating popcorn flavored ice cream from Ben & Jerry's.
I'm still very confused from yesterday's phone call but I chose not to overthink it and let her explain.
So far she hasn't, and I'm starting to freak out.
-''So I called you yesterday..'' I say stuffing my mouth with a forkful of ice-cream
-''You did?'' she asked confused locking eyes with me
-''Did you enjoy your 'hot pleasure session' ?'' I ask seriously looking her dead in the eyes
-''Aella..'' she shook her head causing a tear drop to roll down her rosy cheeks
-''Cam? What's wrong? I was joking look at me.'' I tell her holding her hand
She pulls back and gets on her feet
-''I'm sorry I cant do this anymore.'' she shook her head now full on crying
To say I was confused would be the understatement of the century.
-''Talk to me Cam what's bothering you love?'' I get closer holding her cheeks in my hands softly making her face me
-''I don't deserve your love A, you can do so much better than me'' she says
I start talking but she raises her hand to shut me up
-''I'm..'' she buries her head in the crook of my neck devastated
-''A, I'm pregnant'' she whispers in my ear
My heart sunk yet again. My hands fell to my sides weakly pushing her away from me.
what
WHAT
-''Who was it?'' I ask her dryly
Silence
-''Who was it god damnit!'' I shout moving away even further
What has my life turned to for fucks sake
I watched her cry her eyes dry, hands covering her beautiful face.
-''It just happened and-''
-''One does not simply get pregnant Cam! What the hell, you're 19 for god's sake.''
-''This is why I don't deserve you Aella, you're way too good for me, gosh you're not even addressing the fact that I cheated on you!'' she shouted pushing me away
-''No no no absolutely not YOU do not get to be angry in this situation'' I tell her pointing my finger on her chest many times
-''God how long have you been lying to me?'' I ask her but mostly myself
-''I just found out 2 weeks ago..''
I do the most unpredictable thing and laugh. Scratch that I'm laughing my ass out, how could I have been so damn blind? Why do I always get my heart broken ? Am I that bad that I don't deserve happiness and love? Do I even matter to anyone?
-''let me fix that question. How long have you been cheating love'' I ask her still smiling bitterly.
She shakes her head.
-''It happened a few months ago but I couldn't stop and now look at me, I'm a mess'' she cries softly
-''Do I know him?''
