Series of Unfortunate Regrets

Chapter 1

|PRESENT TIME|
    I thought it couldn't get worse. But it did, I stopped every single second to find me reminding myself that nothing happened. But it did however, I wasn't the only one that was lied too or, was I ?
   
     I really never understood what was about to happen until now. Now that I am learning about every single stupid moment that happened in my life. I hope I won't regret anything, I just want to forget everything and put it in the past.

    My friends, family, everyone doesn't support me anymore. It's useless for me to ask cause they won't answer. So I just leave to my room in my sorrows, So that one day it will be over. But it can't be over I always hear them talking about me. Then I start to think what will they be saying?

    But every time I get caught, they scold me to not be an ungrateful brat. But I think to myself, they are the ones being brats. They are the ones who need scolding not me. I wish I could forget....But it's hard because, I always remember every single thing that was said to me.I want to forget no matter how hard I try I can't.

      | FIVE MONTHS PRIOR |
*Next day*
I woke up trying to not remember the moment where I thought I was going to get something nice for a change. Tomorrow was the day I would never forget that was for sure,{ I thought I was gonna go through with it, I guess not } I am gonna run away. But for once, I'm not skipping, just ..... making my life difficult maybe. I decided that it would be best for me to drive my mothers car since, she isn't gonna see it any time soon. I drove to school and went to the school bathroom since no body goes in there in the morning. I decided to waste my time, I would smoke some shit I got from a school druggy.
* skip to lunch *
[ I hate this, I should have left already ]

While I was sitting under the bleachers outside, a girl came and sat beside me. She offered me a subway sandwich which I took since I was fucking hungry. She then quietly said " what's your name? Are you new? I've never seen you around here before?" I answered honestly not giving a fuck about anything she said, I got up threw the trash on the ground and walked away but she followed, I honestly hated that she was following me so I stopped in my tracks turned around and said "Look I don't know if you have friends or not, but I don't want to be one of them understand? Leave me the fuck alone", she looked down but looked back up she looked more determined for me to be her friend now, she grabbed my hand and says "Lets skip the rest of school, k?" She then showed me to what she called her secret special palace, and it was amazing not going to lie. We walked farther into the 'special palace' and sit down, there was so much tension I didn't know what I would say. She spoke up "I've seen you around before.. I know what it's like...being like you". I look at her surprised, I grab a cigarette from my bag and offer her one but she declines. I light it and let out a few puffs after a while of her watching me I finally let out " So what's your name? Why do you casually stalk me?", "Oh my name is Miley.. I'm in your English class. And for your information I don't stalk you, I see you around school sometimes".

     After a while I ditched her, I told her to meet me in the girls locker room after the 5th bell, she did and I finally got her to smoke a bit. When I got home I decided to give Lucas a call I've been ignoring him for certain reasons, when I called him... he sounded stressed I told him to calm down and tell me what was going on, then it hit me I knew why. I ran to his house on the verge of tears, I yelled Lucas over and over finally he'd answer, he was on the floor... he was now in my arms I was crying uncontrollably... I called Luc and Seb hoping they'd get here in time while that happened I grabbed things from his first aid kit put him in the bathtub with me and I fixed him up the best I could, I heard the door from the kitchen open and it was them. Luc... pretty... Lucille...tall, brunette, tan skin.. the pretty girl everyone would like. Seb... Luc's other half... short, pale, brunette they were my friends. Luc grabbed Lucas, we got in him in the car, went straight to the hospital. Luc was on edge this wasn't her first rodeo on this type of stuff it was mainly me all the times but now it was Lucas why Lucas? Seb had called all our friend group consisting of June, Dean, Jaden not including Luc, Seb , Lucas, Mars, Kori and I. They were there instantly, half of them I wasn't friends with, mainly being they thought I was a bad influence and I wasn't worth their time when I was hurting.

    After it all happened we went home Lucas's aunt was called and everything went down hill... June called me one morning yelling at me for some unknown reason, after some yelling, crying, and screaming she told me to meet her at a coffee shop. I was there for like 20 minutes and I see her walking towards me, I stare at her... she still had her long black and blonde hair... and she had lost weight. "Hey June?" I slowly let out while being confused as to why I'm here, she then explains what was going down. Then she said it "I know you like Lucas please stay away from him, look his aunt thinks that you are the cause to his problem she's going to end up finding out all the shit you've done okay!" "Like him oh that's new, for starters I know you've never really liked me that's besides the point okay. How dare you and everyone else say I'm the cause of their problems when I have nothing to do with them! You know junie bug I care less what you think okay goodbye." That's the last thing I say to her that whole month, things kept getting worse I guess the world isn't going to let me forget everything..... I already regret so much.....how many regrets can someone have.