i haven't talked to him since the music festival. i ignored his texts and calls, which i hated to do. but tzuyu told me to stay away from him, obviously i had to, shouldn't i?
9:16am
it was still early, i just changed out of my pajamas and brushed my teeth. i sat on the couch, switched on the tv and enjoyed the drama that was playing. i was so engrossed in the drama when someone started knocking the door vigorously. "kim yerim , open the door!!!" by the voice, i knew who it was. him. i was hesitant to open the door. but on second thoughts, he didn't do anything to deserve my ignorance. it's just tzuyu.
i walked over to the door and opened it. he was giving that stare. that death stare.
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"h-how did you know i-" he cut me off, "why are you ignoring me?" he asked coldly, in his deep husky voice. i was intimidated. "your girlfriend told me to stay away from you" i calmly explained. "and so you did?" his question made me speechless. i just stood there, not replying him, and just staring deeply into his eyes. "i-im sorry jungkook... i just didn't want to break your relationship with her or anything, because... i know you love her a lot." i said. he looked at me and sighed. "it's okay... i guess you were being thoughtful for our relationship. we're really drifting and i don't want that... you're a good friend, don't just ignore me because of my relationship with tzuyu, please. i was worried" he said and flashed me a smile. i smiled back, "of course, im sorry for making you worried" he shook his head and i guess everything's good now. im still thinking to myself though, why did i listen to tzuyu? why would i care more of their relationship than my friendship with jungkook? oh yeah, because i like jungkook. and i don't want him to be down. yeah, that's right. but he doesn't feel the same way. that's what sucks.
i invited him in and served him a glass of water. we talked a lot, since we haven't been talking for the past 2 days. and i was pretty glad that i was actually important enough that he would worry even when i don't talk to him for 2 days. that's the only thing that made me happy. but their relationship? i don't know anymore. i really dont want the jealousy and hatred towards their relationship to grow in me. im happy ,even when he's just my friend , and that im able to talk to him and hangout with him, that's good enough. but, i think my heart feels differently.
