𝘪𝘵 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴 ➤ 𝑗𝑢𝑛𝑔𝑟𝑖

recovering?♀

-yerim's pov-
10:29am

i was laying on the hospital bed, reading magazines and looking out of the window. i was dead bored. there is literally nothing to do here in the hospital. my phone has nothing anyways.

"aish it's so boring!"

someone then barged into the room.

"aish kim yerim... stop complaining" it was taehyung oppa. nope, i don't remember who he is, but i was told he was in jungkook's group name BTS, and that i was his friend and stuff. he's a nice guy. and i kinda remember him? he has been visiting me and telling me many stuff about jungkook, but i couldn't remember. not a single thing. which makes me so frustrated honestly. 

"oppa... you should try staying in the hospital for 4 weeks straight, not even going out" i rolled my eyes as he chuckled. "be happy that you don't have schedules... your oppa here is working hard you know" he said, giving me a pat on my head.

well, i couldn't fight back. i was relieved i didn't need to go practices and stuff, but i missed my fans so much. i missed the outside world. it sucks to be stuck here, in a freaking hospital.

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"cham, cham, cham!" he exclaimed. we were playing games as i was getting really bored. "i win!!!!!" i shouted with joy. he just looked at the floor and started pouting. i swear im the best at this game.

"one flick!" he raised his head and stared at me with puppy eyes, but of course, that didnt work. i smirked and immediately flicked his forehead hardly. it made a loud sound which seems; pretty painful. we were joking around and playing different games. he lit up my whole day actually. being in the hospital is so much more fun with a friend.

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"rock, pape-" his phone suddenly rang. he picked it up and his face expression instantly changed. he looked dead serious.

"ill head there right away"

he then ended the call. he was looking at me with teary eyes. "j-jungkook is in the hospital. l-lets go" he stuttered, mostly from the shock. my eyes widened and my heart sank. i didn't want anything to happen to him, even though i don't quite remember him.

i got off my bed and dragged taehyung oppa out of the room.

we headed to a room upstairs, which i assume was jungkook's ward.

taehyung oppa swung the door open and there was 6 men standing around the bed. as the two men made space for taehyung and i to walk through, i saw jungkook, laying on the bed motionless. i felt my heart racing. what am i feeling?

"h-how did this happen?" i asked softly. their eyes and mine traced to his arm full with red scars.

that's when i knew, i made a huge impact on him.

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"w-why did he do that? why is he so stupid?" they didn't say anything. the room was filled with silence except for my sobs. i was tearing up , knowing that i was the main reason for him to cut—i guess?

"do you... want some time with him, rim?" namjoon oppa asked. i just nodded my head slightly. "let's leave... " he continued as they left the room one by one, leaving jungkook and i alone.

i sat on the chair beside his bed. i didn't know what to do or say. i just felt so bad and sorry, for not remembering him.

"j-jungkook... im sorry... for not remembering you... but why did you do that? why are you so dumb? im so worried... look at those scars... " i said as i ran my finger over his scars.

"ah!" i looked up and realized he can feel the pain. "it-it hurts..." he winced in pain. "sorry!!! are you okay???" i asked. he slowly opened his eyes and met mine. he just chuckled.

"i haven't died yet..." that was all he said. i couldn't reply.

"why would you do that?" i asked.

"cause im nothing without you. i can't live without you. but you don't need me now, because you don't remember me." he answered. my heart tore. ive never felt so bad for someone in my life before. it honestly sucks seeing him this way...

"i-im sorry... i really am jungkook... im trying my best to remember you... i want to remember you... i dont want to see you this way... " i spoke as tears started filling my eyes once again.

he stared at me with tears evident in his eyes and smiled. "its okay. you don't have to...do you remember? on our first anniversary..." a shot of pain came coming into my head the moment i heard the word 'anniversary'. but i just ignored the pain and listened to him. "you thought ive forgotten it was our anniversary... but i surprised you... at the amusement park... and you were so happy that you cried... you said you loved me... and i said you were mine... but i dont think you do anymore... " he continued. another shot of pain came coming through to my head and this time it was hurting so bad. i was grabbing my head as the pain was unbearable. a memory flashed in my head.

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"are you looking for me?"

i stopped where i was. i just froze. i recognize that voice. i turned around and dropped my food that was in my hands, due to what i was seeing in front of me. tears started forming in my eyes. i couldn't move. i was in shock. he was there, holding a bunch of flowers. "j-jungkook... " my legs carried me as i ran to him, giving him a tight hug. i thought he had forgotten...

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the love of my life? am i recovering? am i remembering him?