𝘪𝘵 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴 ➤ 𝑗𝑢𝑛𝑔𝑟𝑖

⇩giving up?⇧

-yerim's pov-

i ran to the bathroom, fixing my ruined makeup. i was in a mess from all the crying. i didn't know what to do. i still love him. i don't know why i ran away from him either. im so confused. it broke my heart even more when i saw him crying, but i just ran away. why?

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i then headed back to the waiting room, trying to hide my puffy eyes. "omo! yerim, what happened to you?your eyes-" my stylist was freaking out but i cut her off, "something went into my eyes, don't worry" she nodded and touched up my makeup.

after touching up, i went to sit at the couch where seulgi unnie was. i just sat silently beside her, checking my phone if he texted. but why am i doing this? i don't know either.

"yerim ah..." seulgi unnie whispered. i looked at her and raised one eyebrow, "yeah?" "did you fight with jungkook? he came to look for you just now, he was almost crying... and you came back with puffy red eyes, it makes me worry" she said, frowning.

my heart just stopped when she mentioned jungkook. i didn't know what to say. she held my hand before speaking again, "you can tell me yerim, i won't tell anyone" i was hesitant but ended up telling her anyways.

i told her everything. what i saw, what happened, what he said, what i felt, everything. i was fighting back my tears, as i didn't want to get my makeup ruined again.

"yerim ah... from the way i see it, he still loves you. he needs you. and i know you feel the same. you need to talk to him, after the show. okay? now focus on the performance." she advised, patting my back. i just nodded a wiped my tears away, before taking a deep breath and heading backstage.

12:38pm

it was the grand opening. it sucks cause my group would be beside his group. if only that ass didn't poke into our business. throughout the whole opening, i just stood behind seulgi unnie, hiding my face and presence from the fans and cameras. i just looked down on the floor, thinking about him. i didn't know how to talk to him about it either, but i know i can't just leave things hanging like that.

when BTS came out, my heartbeat was increasing rapidly. i could hear my own heart thumping. as soon as the boys stood beside us, i could hear little small talks and gossips about me and jungkook. they probably already knew about what happened. from my side eye, i could see jungkook stealing glances at me. i felt miserable. i was so weak and tired. i wished none of that happened.

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soon, the opening ended and we went down the stage to sit down at our respective tables. i wanted to be alone for awhile so i headed backstage, to the washroom.

i just looked at myself in the mirror. "gosh yerim you look so hideous, who do you think you are? jungkook loves you? please you're just a ordinary below average girl. who are you to think he loves you? you shouldn't over think yerim..." i sighed as i spoke to my reflection in the mirror.

"that's right." someone spoke. i looked at her in the mirror. she was glaring at me. "oh honey, who are you to think jungkook loves you? he loves me. not you. he's mine, not yours. you're just being dumb. stop it. it's annoying. stop getting in between both of us. please" she said.

i didn't care anymore. i turned around and walked towards her, before pushing her hardly. i was obviously pissed. "so? so what if im a dumb kid? so what if he doesn't love me? so what if he loves you? from what i see, you're not much better than me. and if you want him so badly, take him. ive had enough of your bullshit tzuyu. day by day, you are the one getting in between me and jungkook's plans. who are you to blame me for everything? im your sunbae for fuck sake. show some respect would you? it's disgusting how you act in front of the camera. stop being so fake. if he's truly yours, go get him. ill see who gets him first." i finished my sentence and left the washroom. leaving her speechless.

i was done. literally done with her, everything that she had done to my relationship with him. but thinking about what i had just said to her, have i just given up on jungkook? am i really giving up?