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Jc Leaves... Part 7

            It has been three days since Jc has came home. It has taken everything in me to stay away from him. What the hell does he expect me to do? Rush back into his arms? Kiss him? Like no bitch, you left me for how long. I am not going to give in that quickly... At least I hope I don't. 

At the moment, Jc is sleeping on the couch. I peeked my head out to see if he was there, and he was. Sleeping soundly with Wishbone on his legs. I smiled at them. That is exactly how they used to sleep when they were here before. My smiled faltered into a frown. What the hell am I going to do? Should I let Jc stay here? Tell him to fuck off? I'm confused. 

I went back into the bedroom and laid down. I rubbed my eyes and kept my hands on my face. I lowered them when a soft knock sound was at the bedroom door. Jc was awake. I took a deep breath and cleared my throat. 

"Come in," I mumbled. 

Jc slowly opened the door and Wishbone came running in and jumping on the bed. He jumped on me and licked my face. I giggled. 

"Hi buddy! It's been a while, huh?" I rubbed his belly and let him lay on me.

I looked up at Jc and he was smiling at the sight in front of him.

"He missed you... I missed you," Jc said with his head down. 

"I missed you too, Jc. You do understand that I have no fucking clue on how to feel right now? I want to scream, cry, smile... Every emotion. All I can do is look at you and just... Shake my head. You destroyed me. You broke my heart. You were gone for 8 months! How can I just accept the fact that you are here and wanting to stay here. Almost every part of me just wants to tell you to leave and never come back. The other part of me, wants you to hold me in your arms and never let go... I want an explanation on why you left me in the first place. No lies, no secrets. I want the truth." 

After I was done talking, he sat cross-legged in front of me and held his hands in his lap. 

"No lies... No secrets. This is the truth... I left because I wanted adventure. You know me, I love exploring and going to new places. We never did that. I was getting restless. Going to film with Kian or by myself, then coming home to you and doing nothing. I couldn't just sit here. Yeah sure, filming is great, but I just needed something more. I was lacking something, and I didn't know what it was. Once I was driving down the road, not looking back, it felt right. I was back to feeling that something. That's what I needed to do. Find myself again. It took me a day or so to realize that I wanted you with me. To experience the world with me. But I knew that you wouldn't do it. You don't like change, I do. I needed a change. Within a month, I wanted to come home. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I had to stay where I was. I am so sorry for everything you went through while I was gone. I didn't think of the consequences. I know you won't forgive me, but just now how incredibly sorry I am." 

After taking in everything Jc had said, it made me realize something. I was holding Jc back from things that he loved. I held him back without even realizing it. How could I have been so selfish? 

I just shook my head at myself.

"I don't blame you for leaving," I admitted.

Jc looked up at me, looking a little confused. "What do you mean?"

I sighed and took his hands in mine. "I was holding you back. I kept you from what you loved doing most. You're right, I hate change. I am a very introverted person. I wouldn't have been able to live how you do. No way in hell was I making it. I get it now. I do. I am so sorry for not letting you go out and do what you loved."

Jc closed his eyes and shook his head. "It's not that. I don't know how to explain it, but it wasn't you. All I know is that I want to stay here with you, and be your boyfriend again. If you let me that is." 

I let go of his hands and crossed my arms over my chest.

Should I let him stay? 

(A/N) ** Heyy guys.... welp, I finally updated part 7! Y'all can scream at me now. I deserve it. But I hope y'all forgive me. I mean, I did write out this good update? I have my laptop up and running now. So I will finally be able to update more. IF that is what you guys want. Anyway, comment, vote! Let me know what y'all think for this update. Should Jc stay? Let me know! FORGIVE ME***