Jc Caylen Imagines.

Jc leaves: part 3

So far, Kian hasn't left me... It's strange. I want to be alone, but then again, I want someone with me. But I want Jc. That's who I want. It's almost been a year since Jc left. It's getting easier to cope with. I don't cry as much, I smile more, I am finally eating again, sleeping is easier... Maybe it is time to move on. Is that what Jc would want? I don't know to be honest... He just up and left, so I wouldn't know what he wanted... Or still wants.

Jc was always confusing. He had a temper, but it was easy to piss him off. Although, he had a really sweet side. He would bring me home flowers or even fast food. And believe me, it was amazing. He was very protective of me. He always held my hand or had his arm around me when we went out. He never looked at other girls, it was only me. He would leave me cute notes to find when I woke up. He would make us breakfast sometimes.

But, all that changed now.

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"(y/n)! Come on, we have to leave," Kian said. He was taking me out to dinner... For the first time in forever, I'm actually leaving the apartment... My mind immediately went to Jc and I. He would take me out to dinner almost every Friday night.

I held back a sob and looked in the mirror. Am I really gonna do this? Go out with my ex-boyfriends best friend? It is so wrong, but to be honest, it feels so right. 

Does Jc even think about me? 

Just a little? 

Does he still have pictures of us on his phone, like I have? 

Does he dream about me every night? 

Am I the first thought he has when he wakes up? 

Am I the last thought he has before he sleeps?

 Am I there every time he closes his eyes?

I can't do this. I can't. It's like I'm betraying him. It's Jc, it's always been Jc. I need to find him. At least, get a hold of him... I just want to hear his voice again.

At that exact moment, my phone started to ring it was Jc's ringtone. My heart stopped. I picked up my phone with shaky hands and clicked 'answer'. I breathed unevenly, tears going down my face.

"J-Jc?"

TO BE CONTINUED!!!!!!!!!