How To Love

Chapter 5- Please... Go Away...

~Chapter 5~

Lily’s POV

                I ran.

                Well…. First I had to grab my bag, which thankfully, I had placed outside the house.

                But then I ran. I ran and ran until I had reached my sanctuary.

                My mini waterfall. The one place in the world I felt safe.

                I crawled into my hidden cave and wept.

                I wept for all the times I had felt abandoned (which is all the time).

                I wept for the few people I truly loved, but couldn’t be around.

                I wept for myself.

                “Sweetheart, please stop crying. You’re making me depressed as well. We need to stay strong.”

How? I have nothing to live for. My mate looks at me like I’m shit. I basically have no family as they all hate me as well. I can’t be with my best friend. The whole pack thinks I’m nothing.

“You have yourself to live for, and that should be the most important part! You weren’t born to satisfy others. You were born to live a life so generously given to you! I know how sad you are, trust me, I feel everything you’re feeling, but you need to pull yourself together.”

I’m being selfish, I’m sorry. I never even liked him anyways… stupid emotions…

“That’s the spirit!”

Well, I can’t stay here forever. I only have one bag worth of stuff, I guess I can walk to…. Wherever!

“Just pick a direction! This’ll be an adventure, your ‘journey’ on becoming a new person. To recreate yourself.”

I gathered up my things and left the cave. I picked a direction and started walking.

I walked towards my new life.

I guess the old saying is true “When one door closes, another opens.”

Of course, in my case it’s more like “When one door closes, a whole uncharted forest opens to who-knows-where.”

I think I’ve been walking for a little less than a week now. I don’t know where I am, but I’m still surrounded by a bunch of trees.

The only company I have is Stella.

She’s great, but there are only so many things to talk about until you run out.

I don’t have an I-pod or any sort of entertainment device.

My only amusement is to observe all of the different animals in the forest and ask Stella the most painless ways to hunt them.

You can tell I’m getting really hungry… I’ve, of course, finished all of the food I had packed.

I couldn’t take the hunger anymore, I had to eat. I know that I haven’t ever hunted anything in my life, but Stella must have some natural talent. She is my wolf side after all.

I checked my surroundings before I shifted.

I had passed an elderly deer a while ago, and Stella said it would be the most ideal prey.

I let her take over.

The feeling of not having control over my body, well my wolf body, is so weird.