How To Love

Chapter 2- "Little" Changes

A.N. So how did you like the first chapter? :o Anybody hating on Lauren yet? >:) (evil cackle!)

~Chapter 2~

Lily’s POV

It took Nate a minute to snap out of his trance and get a hold of the situation. But when he did, I was definitely not expecting him to shove me to the ground!

I fell with a loud thud, and guess what I landed on… my butt. Damn it hurts! I glared up at the man who I had regrettably just thought of as my mate.

The look in his eyes said it all, or so I thought.

“What the hell you dumb whore! Watch where you’re going!” His face was masked with horror and disgust, and in that moment, I truly felt pain.

It wasn’t the kind of pain that would go away soon, nor was it the type to slowly disappear.

It wasn’t like the pain I felt when Lauren had shoved me against the wall, or when one of the pack members decided to push me down the stairs.

 It wasn’t even close the pain I had endured when my drunken father whipped, kicked, punched, slapped, or cut me.

No, this was much worse. I felt like everything inside of me was crumbling down. As if I would never be happy again, as if I would never know was love would be like.

I guess today is just my day, because as I started to get up, another wave of agony rushed through my head, like something was trying to break out. GOSH IT HURTS LIKE HELL!

I fall onto my knees and grip my head, I want to scream, but I can’t find my voice!

 I’m hyperventilating now, and all I could think was ‘OMG-OMG-OMG-OMG-KILL ME NOW!’ Then I remembered where I was sitting.

As the pain started to pass, I slowly looked up to see a big gathering of people around me, but no Nate.

Wait, why am I even looking for him? I shooed the petty thought from my mind and decided now would be a good time to get up and go to class, but I guess my legs weren’t really thinking along the same terms because they collapsed from under me and I fell once more.

A girl came out of the crowd and started to gather the books and binders I had dropped. I look up to see who on Earth would dare help me, it’s Alyson Thissen from Ridgeback.

 We used to be friends in kindergarten and grade one but had drifted apart for no real reason.

I snapped out of my flashback of our childhood and into reality to see that she was holding out her hand. I think she’s helping me up… my God… what is going in the world?

“Umm…. Thanks Aly.” I half whispered, the tears threatening to spill.

“It’s nothing, I just couldn’t bear to see you like that. I know we aren’t close friends anymore, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to be a cruel person. ” She looked into my eyes with pity as she handed my books back to me.

With that she turned around and headed to class, her perfectly curled auburn hair bouncing on her uniform clad back.

Right then, I realised that I’m jealous of Aly. She has such a normal life.

In fact, I’m jealous of Lauren, Brianna, Nate, my brother, the people standing around me, and even humans. I’m jealous of all of them. They all had a relevantly normal life.

They had friends who they could hang out with, and not be scared of receiving death threats. They had the amenities that I did not. They had a life.

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                As soon as the bell signaled that fourth period had ended, I rushed out of class and to my locker to grab the present Bri gave me. I then headed straight home, taking my shortcut through the forest.

Halfway to the pack house, I suddenly had another wave of pain rush through my head. This had to be the worst one yet.  I fell onto the ground moaning, tears streaming down my face.

I wanted to scream, but I knew the pack patrollers would hear me. So I stayed as silent as I could, only let out the smallest of cries as I curled my hands into a tight fist. I could see blood seeping out from my fist, but I didn’t let go.

I’m laying down in fetal position in the middle of a forest, waiting for my death. Well, I’m being a little over dramatic, but it feels like I’m going to die.

Just when the pain started to slowly fade away and I allowed myself to slightly inch out of my comfortable spot, I heard a snap.

It took my brain a while to figure out that it had been my wrist.

“Oh fuck!” I half screamed and half whispered, still in fear of being found.

The adrenaline rushing through my body is the only thing keeping me sane at the moment. I heard a snap, my leg. Another snap, my arm.

This cycle continued for what felt like hours. I was on my knees, sweat beading along my forehead and drenching my clothes.

I looked up at the sky, it’s a beautiful ombré of reds, oranges and yellows. The glorious sunset was the last thing I saw before I heard the final snap of my spine and drifted into the peaceful darkness.

I gently opened my eyes and looked around. I’m still lying in the forest.

The pitch black sky was littered with stars, only interrupted by a bright crescent moon and a couple of light clouds. Then it hit me. Night time.

I should be at the pack house cleaning right now! They’re going to kill me! I panicked and tried to stand up but failed miserably.

I looked down to see that I had shifted into my wolf. I quickly ran over to a nearby stream to see my reflection. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing!